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Post by doyle on Jul 29, 2013 7:40:16 GMT -6
-------------------------- [/b]  --------------------------[/b] Whiskey, it had always been Doyle’s drink of choice. Now it was not that he was an alcoholic or something like that no. well maybe at some point in his life he had been but this was part of the past. It was no someone he was now. So many things had changed for him in the past. He had been part of the good people and then had changed to become part of the people he used to despise. It had been because he had started to hate himself so much he simply could not help it. But then some people had come into his life and had managed to find a way to help him, to make him able to not hate himself so much. To know that even if he was part demon it didn’t mean that he had to be bad. He was still able to help others. And that was what he had needed at the time, knowing that he was not all bad was what had made him strong.
And then he had to sacrifice himself, he had not wanted to die, but he also knew it had been the right thing to do. He had not regretted his decision. Doing the right thing sometime was painful but he was okay with this. He knew he had saved a lot of people and really it was all that mattered to him in the end. He had never expected to be back here after that. And yet now there he was walking the earth again, alive. It was not like he had really had a choice but he was okay with this. Angel needed him and of course Doyle would be right there for him. He wondered if Cordelia was still around, he wondered how she was doing. He hoped she was happy.
Finishing his glass, Doyle paid the bartender before walking out of the bar and down the streets. He needed to find Angel, he needed to figure out what their next step was going to be. Or well right now what his first step was going to be.
The streets were quiet and he was happy with that. He needed some time to clear his head before he dive back into his past life. He knew so much would have change since the last time and he wondered how much things would have actually change. For a moment he wondered if this really was the right thing. But it had to be, he would not have been brought back otherwise. He was unsure where he would find Angel, the powers that be had not really be that specific this time around, but at least he had an idea on what town he was supposed to be in.
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Post by cordelia on Jul 29, 2013 15:46:56 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b]  -----------------------[/b] Cordelia was totally going shopping today. She wanted to get some cute clothes and show off to Benny because she knew he would love them as he always complimented her. She was pretty excited as she hadn't gone shopping in a while, she had the time to today since she wasn't working. She decided she would head to the town square and go into the small stores since they seemed reasonable enough to shop in. She didn't buy cheap clothes but she didn't buy expensive ones since she wasn't rich enough to, she wished she was but life sucked that way. She remembered the days when she could afford everything and now...look at her.
She went into one of her favourite stores and bought a pair of jeans even though it wasn't jeans weather just yet, well actually it was so she should be fine. Then she found a cute top that she thought would go well, okay there was no stopping Cordelia once she was in shop mode it was basically illegal to stop her from shopping. She was zoned in and really no one could talk to her at the moment, she meant business when she was looking for clothes. She hadn't really worn jewelry in a long time she just felt there was no need besides earrings since she felt like those would never come out.
It was becoming late and Cordelia had about three bags in her hands and she walked down the street with a smile on her face. She was in a good place right now, she had her friends and she had her boyfriend who she was sort of falling in love with. He was a vampire but so what? She didn't care, he was still a sweet guy who loved her for her and she liked that well he didn't love her he probably just liked her right now. Cordelia was walking and she saw someone...she felt like she knew him, she saw him, was her mind playing tricks on her because she was happy? No...it couldn't be him, it couldn't be he was dead she saw him die what the hell was this?
The girl dropped her shopping bags on the ground and froze. She wasn't sure if she should run and tell the others someone was impersonating Doyle or just stand there, he couldn't be real? Memories started to flash in her head of her and him together and she wasn't sure what on earth she was supposed to do. She had missed him...she even loved him and she still did which was one of the reasons why she wasn't in love with Benny because she was still stuck being in love with the man who had died to save all of the half-demons. Cordelia started shaking and she felt as if her breath started to grow heavy, she couldn't breathe right now. God dammit why was he she imagining him? He had to be from her mind, this wasn't real she knew it...but why couldn't she move?
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Post by doyle on Jul 31, 2013 11:15:12 GMT -6
-------------------------- [/b] --------------------------[/b] The sound of his feet was the only thing he could hear right now. The only thing he could really focus on. There were too many thoughts in his head right now. He wondered what was so important that Angel needed him back, that was so big that the powers that be had decided to bring him back to life. He had to admit that he was slightly worried. Not because he didn’t think he could help but because he wondered what was going on. He wished that they had explained to him what was going on. But of course no one had. He had just been send back and that was it.
Maybe he should try and call Angel because just showing up on his doorstep. Not that even knew where to find the vampire. He figured he would just walk around until he managed to find him or at least get a vision of where he might have been. But all in due time. It was not like he could just sit and wait until he got some sort of sign to help him. He had to do something so he figured he would start looking around, asking people, trying to find where the strange things were. Because he knew that as soon as he found some supernatural trouble, Angel would be close by. it was the only somewhat lead he had right now so he needed to hold on to it right now. And beside chances were he would find Angel once he found something that didn’t sit right with the normal side of life.
Doyle felt someone looking at him and looked around wondering if this was just an impression or if someone was actually really watching him. But then he saw her. It didn’t really take him a long time before his eyes found her. He blinked a few times wondering if he was really seeing things clearly. Was this really happening? Was this really going on? It couldn’t be this could not be real. For a moment he wondered why was she here. A part of him wondered if perhaps she was now with Angel. His heart broken at the thought of this. But still he could not stay away from her. He needed to go and see, needed to talk to her.
After Harriet he had been sure he would never be able to love again. And then he had meet Cordelia and everything had changed. He had never believed that she could love someone like him. He was a demon and he knew how she felt about demons. But he had loved her so much. And now there she was. A part of himself wondered if this was fate, maybe they had been meant to be together all along. Perhaps it was one of the reason why he was back. He could not stand there any longer, he started to walk faster almost running to where he was. “Cordelia.” Was all he managed to say in his Irish accent. What else could he say when all he really wanted to do was wrap his arms around her. But he was afraid that he was going to be moving too fast that he was going to scare her away.
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Post by cordelia on Jul 31, 2013 17:48:43 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] Cordelia felt so lost right now, what was she supposed to think? Right now she was just going to think it was her imagination, she didn't want to think he was here because it couldn't be him he was dead...she saw him die. Then again the girl had died as well at some point but this was different he had been dead for so long so why would the Powers just bring him back when they could have a long time ago. Was this their way of saying 'Hey Cordy you can have Doyle back because we know you're in a relationship that's not meant to be' and maybe the Powers were right, seeing him right in front of her she just couldn't believe it.
Seeing him made her think of the past what they could of had if he hadn't died...they could of had a life together. The girl had been in love with him and she still was, her heart had never moved on when he died and she wished to god that it did but something was just stopping her. It was then she knew that Doyle was the only one she could ever truly love. If this was Doyle then she didn't know what she would do, seeing his face made her think of his death and their first and last kiss. She still couldn't believe they shared one kiss and that was the night he died, she wanted more with him, well back then but right now what did she want from him?
The figure started walking to her and quite quickly, so it was safe to say that he wasn't imaginary but what if he was some person impersonating him? Yeah, that was it and she was going to die, she could probably handle herself since Angel had trained her but still. He had moved closer to her and she wanted to step back but the girl just stood there, he looked like him so could it be? And then he spoke...his Irish accent showing, god she had missed his voice and all she wanted to do was embrace him but she still didn't know what to do right now. The girl was at a total loss of words and she still didn't want to believe that it was him not yet.
"You're...not real," finally speaking. Her eyes had started to water but she kept it in, she wouldn't cry not now when she didn't know if this was truly him. "You were dead I mean he is dead," she said with a frown. She just refused to believe it was him even though apart of her knew it was him but she was scared to believe, she didn't want to lose him like she did last time. She finally stepped back but only a bit. This had to be some form of setup how could it be that both of them would be in the same area at the same time? It had to be some demon out to get her or maybe the Powers were testing her loyalty, she didn't know all she knew was that the guy she loved was standing in front of her and she had no idea what to do or say...this was truly him but was she ready to believe that?
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Post by doyle on Aug 5, 2013 10:28:01 GMT -6
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This was a bit too much for Doyle to deal with and he kind of wanted another drink, just to ease his mind. He had hoped to see her, but he had kind of wanted to be able to see Angel before so he could go and try to figure out what was going on but also what Cordelia had been to in the past years. But apparently it was not how it was going to work out for him. Seriously he had just been brought back from the dead and now this? Couldn’t the powers that be have at least left him a manual, a summary of everything that had been going on recently so he knew where to start? Would that have been too much to ask? Apparently so yes.
But now she was there and there was not much Doyle could do anymore. He would need to talk to her, really talk to her. He had to be ready for anything she could tell him, perhaps she was going to tell him that she was with someone else, maybe she was even married. The whole though of this was killing him inside but at the same time he could not blame her for having moved on. It was not like they had really been together before anyway. They had never really been a couple. They had only shared one kiss and that was right before he had died. But this was all part of the past and he needed to move on himself is that was what she had done.
Doyle could see it in her face, she didn’t believe it was really him and of course he could not blame her. He had been long for so long and no one knew he was back as far as he was aware. “I know this is insane Cordelia.” He told her as his hand moved to the back of his neck close to his skull. “But it really is me. I have been brought back.” He tried to explain but he knew how it all sounded. There was no way for him to prove he really was himself, nothing that could let her see it. “you have to believe me Cordelia, it’s really me.” He started.
While he didn’t really want to have this conversation right here he also doubted that she would follow him until she was sure that he really was who he said he was. “The powers that be brought me back. They said that Angel needed help. But that was all they said. they have yet to give me more information, I have not even found Angel as of yet…” he tried to explain to her. “cordelia look into my eyes. Look at me and know that this is really me.” He asked of her. He walked over to her slowly not wanted her to be afraid of him. His hand moved to touch her face. “Please.” He could feel his breath becoming shorter as he waited wanting to know that she trusted him, he could not bear the thought of losing her again and as he looked into her eyes, he knew that if she was with someone else, well it meant that he would have to fight for her.
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Post by cordelia on Aug 7, 2013 0:59:14 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] What the hell was happening right now? Why was this happening to her? The man she loved or the man she could see herself loving was standing right in front of her and she was just dumbfounded right now. The look in his eyes though...she knew it was Doyle yet she refused to believe it, she didn't want to think he was going to die again or if the Powers were going to be dicks and poof him back to wherever he was. When she had died and joined the Powers she had thought that maybe just maybe she would see Doyle...but she didn't then again she was too distracted with Earth so maybe he was up there and she just didn't see him there. God, all of this was so surreal.
She had moved on, well she thought she had moved on when she started dating Benny but apparently those feelings were still there and she hated that. She didn't want to tell Benny that her ex was back in town well Doyle wasn't an ex since they never actually dated...she didn't know what to do and it was killing her not knowing. What she needed right now was guidance from a friend but who was she going to go to? Angel wasn't here and the others she wasn't really close to so she would have to figure out this situation on her own which she didn't want to do but she had no choice.
"Believe you? I saw you burn or poof into dust!" She yelled out. She knew that he could obviously be brought back with his body but still this was all just too much. She was being too dramatic but the reason she was being this way was because she was holding her tears and she knew that they were going to come out any second if the conversation kept on going, she couldn't contain it for like. She had so much feelings flowing through her body...she had never felt like this with Benny, she had thought that Benny was the one and thought that Doyle was just another guy but she was denying it and she shouldn't have denied it at all.
"God, can they be bigger asses?" She said more talking to herself than him. She was trying to calm down and act like herself but it was hard when the guy she loved was standing right in front of her. The man started walking closer to her and the woman stood still, she was frozen when he touched her cheek and the way he said please...she couldn't contain it anymore. "Doyle," she said tears finally coming out of her eyes. "I believe you," she said in a whisper. "You're such an idiot!" She said in blubbery tears as she hit him lightly in the shoulder. "You killed yourself when you knew I wanted us to happen! You had to be the freaking hero!" She said punching him lightly in the chest now crying even harder. This was Doyle...it was him. She then stopped hitting and put her face into his chest as she cried smelling whatever he was wearing, it felt good to be this close...god she was so conflicted.
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Post by doyle on Aug 8, 2013 13:14:25 GMT -6
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This had not been his plan. He was suppose to go find Angel figure out what was the big bad right now and take care of it with him. Finding Cordelia which was a priority for him but not for the powers, was suppose to come after he had talk with the vampire. But now everything was turning upside down and he didn’t know where to start with everything that needed to be done. But he knew where he wanted to start. He wanted to be able to talk with Cordelia, at least get her to see that he was really there that this was really him. Once this was done he had no trouble moving on to other things. But with having her so close to him, he could not help himself he could only focus on her.
He wanted to know what she had been up to, what she had been dealing with. Had she moved on from him? Of course she had, it was not like she could stay hung up on him forever. She needed to move on with her life. Maybe she had meet someone. Doyle hoped that it was someone who would be able to take care of her the way she deserved to be taken care of. Cordelia had always been a wonderful woman, she deserved the best. Doyle simply wished that he could be the one to give her everything she had ever needed and more. He hoped that it was not too late.
Doyle could not help but smile as she became overly dramatic. This was the Cordelia he remembered. “I know what happen and I know how it looks. Believe me that if things were reversed I would be as confused as you are. I just need you to try and believe me. Just try.” He pleaded with her. He knew that he could come to get her to believe but that was not going to be now apparently. But the more he looked at her, the more he felt like she did want to believe him. Maybe this was going to work in his favor. But then again when were things ever easy on him?
“yeah well they could have kept me dead and I think that would have sucked a lot more.” Doyle said with a shrug. “I’m alive with no map but at least I’m alive…” it was not perfect but at least it was something he could deal with. And then she finally said his name and he knew she knew. She had to know he really was who he was saying he was. He wished that she would not be crying he didn’t want to see her sad. His hand moved from her cheek to wipe away the tears before reaching into his pocket for a handkerchief. That would be better. “I had to Cordy. I had to make the sacrifice for the others. You know if I could have stayed with you I would have done so…” Doyle told her. “I had never meant to hurt.” He told her as me moved a hand to his shoulder and rubbed it. “seriously you don’t have to hit me, I understand you are mad there is no need for violence.”
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Post by cordelia on Aug 9, 2013 14:36:18 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] God, Cordelia was having like a mental breakdown right now, she wasn't ready for this at all. Couldn't the Powers have sent her some vision telling her that he would be back? It was just so unfair to make him pop out of thin air and come back. They were such jerks for not telling her, if they had then she could have practiced what she was going to say and she wouldn't have been a mess in front of him. She still remembered that time when he had died and the next day she had some audition for a commercial and she just broke down crying...she struggled with his death for a long time and she had grieved and now he was back which made her extremely happy but she had wished he came back a lot earlier.
She seriously wondered what he had done all this time, was he like some demon angel or like did he just wonder around in heaven? There were just so many questions running through her head wondering what she should say to the man and ask. She had loved him and she still did but Benny was still in the picture. She didn't want to start some love triangle as love triangles were so like the 1990's and she knew this wasn't going to be hard decision or maybe it would. All she knew was that she would have to make her decision tonight but for some reason it was like her heart already knew who she would pick...it had to be him, Doyle. She did like Benny but Doyle was the guy for her and she wanted to be with him, she would just have to let down Benny easily.
"I just...need to think for a minute," she told him still teary-eyed. She couldn't believe it was him though, he was finally back, the man she never had a chance with. She remembered thinking he was such a loser and didn't want to get involved with another 'Xander Harris' as she put it but she fell for Doyle and she couldn't help it. So, the girl wasn't dreaming or anything which made her happy, this was real and she felt him, it was still weird knowing that he was back. She wondered what Angel would think of both of his best friends being back, he didn't even know Cordelia was back yet so it was basically two birds with one stone.
"Yeah...it's really you," she said her eyes showing shock. She was really happy right now. The Powers weren't major jerks since they brought him back. She didn't know why they did but she had hoped they did it for her even though he was probably here for some mission or maybe it was just to keep Angel company? She didn't really know. "You're still an idiot!" She said in her crying voice. The girl was being dramatic but she couldn't help herself. "Now you're telling me what to do?!" Doyle was so typical. "I'm not mad!" She said as the man wiped her tears. "I don't know what I'm feeling," she told the man honestly. "I just can't believe you're back," she told him as she went in for another embrace. She didn't want to let him go...not again.
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Post by doyle on Aug 12, 2013 10:41:40 GMT -6
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If only he had been able to talk to Angel before all of this. He could have talked with the vampire, and chances were that Angel would have understood or at least not freak out as much as Cordelia was freaking out. Together they could have figure out a bit more of why he was back and find a way to tell Cordelia but this was too late. There was no way to turn back time and he was going to have to deal with this situation right here and now. He wanted to tell her that he had been thinking about her ever since he had left, ever since everything had change for them. Well mostly for her because he had been dead and it had been the end of the changes for him. There had been nothing after that for him.
Doyle didn’t remember much of everything that had happen after his death, only bits and pieces and he didn’t think he wanted to remember. Who would want to remember the moments where they had been dead? Like not undead like vampires or anything silly like that but really dead when there was nothing else you could do and you were just well you were just gone and that was it. He didn’t want to go back to that or even think about it. No now he was alive and it was the only thing he wanted to focus on. That and Cordelia, the main reason for him being back, helping Angel, was far away from his mind. So far he didn’t even really though about it anymore. It was not that he didn’t care because he still wanted to help his friend but he also wanted to be with Cordelia, at least know if he had a fighting chance because he was going to fight no matter what.
Doyle could only nod when she told him she needed a moment. There was nothing more she could ask out of him really. He had no answers to give her but giving her a minute now that was something he could do. Something he was going to do. He watched her wanting to know what was in her mind. What was she thinking? Was she believing him? Or was she trying to find a way to get rid of him because she was sure he was a demon? Or maybe she wanted to find a way to let him down easily because she had someone else in her life and she needed to be with that person. Even if it was just a minute, the time felt like it was killing him. He could barely breath, he knew she was the woman he needed to be with but did she want to be with him as well.
Finally she spoke again and he could see it in her eyes. She really did believe him. ‘’ `f course it’s me.’’ He told her with a smirk. ‘’please don’t cry, I hate to see you sad and yes I’m an idiot but you knew he had to do this. Had I not sacrifice myself, I would not have been the person I am. It’s part of me, you know that.’’ Doyle added. Had he been different she might not have fell for him in the first place. ‘’okay you are not mad but please Cordy calm down.’’ He asked of her. he hated to see her so upset. He had no idea what he was suppose to do to make her feel better. ‘’I can’t believe I am back…Listen.’’ He said as he pulled her close into his arms wanting to hold her again. ‘’how about you tell me what has been going on since I was well you know dead?’’
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Post by cordelia on Aug 12, 2013 23:49:24 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] What the hell was she supposed to do right now? She didn't want to ruin the moment and tell Doyle about Benny...if the man still had feelings for her then it might hurt him and that was the last thing she wanted to do to him even though he hurt her by sacrificing himself. She knew that he had to considering Angel's destiny was to save the world or whatever but it sucked, she wanted Doyle to be in her life and she thought he wanted to be in her's...and he did but that night she wondered if he actually did. She was still thinking of how she would break it to the man about Benny bu then again she didn't have to tell him...but the girl was no liar she was blunt and she would tell him but still...how could it be him?
Right now she was focusing on Doyle and how he made her feel, he made her feel like she could do anything in the world and that was love right? She wanted to be honest with him and tell him everything that had been going on in her life, he deserved that. What sucked the most about him dying was that she never got the chance to say she loved him because she was waiting for him to say it. She then wondered if the man actually did love her or if he was just crushing right now. If he was just crushing then that would give him an advantage and she didn't want that, she wanted him to feel the same. She saw a future with Doyle and she wanted that future with him so badly and hopefully one day they could as long as he didn't die like a hero again.
Thinking for that period of time made her realize that she needed to be with him, he was back in her life and she was ready to accept that. She wondered how Angel would feel with both of his best friends being back, the vampire would probably have a heart-attack just by seeing them even though his heart wasn't beating...so that wouldn't really work. She just wished that she wasn't crying like a lunatic right now in public, but seeing him brought back the memories of them together:
Our rats are low. Rates! It says rats. When the chips are down, and you're at the end of your rope you need someone that you can count on. And that's what you'll find here - someone who'll go all the way, who'll protect you no matter what. So don't lose hope. Come on over to our offices and you'll see that there's still heroes in this world.
Just remembering that moment made her tear up, she used to watch the video over and over again wishing he was here beside her. She was so impatient with him that day...who knew that day would have been his last until now. "Yeah...I know but you have no idea how that tore me apart Doyle...I swear I needed to go to therapy for that but I was clearly too broke," she said with a shake of her head. The girl was finally calming down and the tears finally stopped flowing but still she was having a hard time comprehending how he was back. "God! I'm calming!" She said. How was she already bickering with the man and he was back just for like a couple of minutes? She loved being in his arms though, when he pulled her in closer she smiled wanting to stay in them forever. When he asked her what had been going on she knew that there was a lot to say. "Well, when you died it wasn't the same but we recruited some people on our team and then Angel got Darla pregnant don't even ask how because it's still a mystery to this day," she said still wondering how it was possible. "Darla had a boy and Angel named him Connor then Connor was taken by some evil dude to an evil dimension and while this is happening the Powers wanted me to ascend or whatever to something greater and I was totally bored. Anyway I come back but I'm not really me someone possessed me and she forced me to sleep with Connor who was now 18 since the demon dimension accelerated his age I got pregnant spawned some full grown goddess or demon whatever the hell she was and I got into a coma," she then stopped just remembering everything being trapped and not being able to do anything about it. "Then...I died," she told the man.
"I came back a month ago," she then broke away from Doyle wanting to look in his eyes. She needed to tell him now. "And a couple weeks ago...I met someone named Ben he is a vampire," she wasn't sure how he would take it. "Doyle I know what you're thinking but...you're here and seeing you I still want you Doyle more than him which is why I'm breaking it off," she told him. "Now, don't feel guilty! Or anything like that if I stayed in that relationship I wouldn't be happy because...you're the only guy that can," she told him looking into his eyes hoping he understood. She was breaking up with Benny and she was going to be with Doyle, she was happy right now. "But don't think that you can just whisk me away mister! Good. That's out. It's done. Would you ask me out for dinner already?" She said with a grin. She remembered when she had asked him that before they knew he was going to die and when she found out he was a half-demon which was why she was grinning, she wondered if he remembered.
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Post by doyle on Aug 15, 2013 10:40:00 GMT -6
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The simple though that perhaps Cordelia had found someone else was breaking his heart. He didn’t think he could deal with that. No he could not deal with this. He didn’t want someone else in her life. He knew he was being selfish. That he should want for her to have moved on from him and found someone who could take care of her the way she deserved but he could not feel this way. Did he want her to be happy? Of course he did but he would much rather have her be happy with him than anyone else if he was being honest. But he was not going to tell her that. He doubted she would find this endearing and loving. But deep down he hoped she had no found someone else and would give him another chance considering what had happen last time and it was not his fault. It had been all about saving the world.
And it had to count for something right? he had saved a lot of people that night. She could not hate him forever because of it, he had done what he had to do. He could still remember it after all it had been his last moment alive.
The good fight, yeah? You never know until you've been tested. I get that now.Too bad we'll never know...if this is a face you could learn to love. He of course did wondered if she could have learn to love his demon face. It did look like she could have but at the same time things could have easily changed over time. She could have started to feel differently over time. And now maybe they would never get a chance to know she could have meet someone and moved on from him. But until he did know this he could not help but feel like he was about to go insane. He almost wanted to ask her but she had told him she needed some time and he doubted that asking this would be part of giving her a moment.
But he would give her all the time she needed. Clearly she had been dealing with other things while being alive. Him on the other hand had not since well nothing really had happen to him after being dead. He simply had to deal with the fact that he was alive again and he was actually quite okay with this so it was all good for him right now. He didn’t have a lot to say about what had happen between his death and now because really there was nothing else to say. He died and now he was back and that was the end of the story.
He saw her eyes tearing up again and didn’t know what to do. “please don’t start crying again.” He asked of her. He hated to see her sad. And he knew it was mostly his fault if she was sad now. “I know it tore you apart and I wish I had been there to take care of you but you know I had to do this..” he told her with a slight cringe once he realised that it was most likely not what she wanted to hear. Cordelia had always been somewhat of a drama queen. And it was one of the many things he loved about her. He didn’t saw her as drama but more that she felt things so intensely that she could not help but be that way. He listen to her tell her what had happen while he was gone and he felt like his head was about to explode. Okay that was a lot. Far too much and he was doing his best to not judge since she had told him been possess and she had not been the one to make those decisions. Still he didn’t like where this was heading not at.
His heart sank when she told him she had died but nothing could prepare him for what was to come next…she had died. Just like him she had been dead and brought back. Well at least they could try and bond on this or something. But then she spoke again and his heart simply shattered. She had meet someone. His arms finally let go of her. She was with someone else. He should not be touching her like this. He didn’t have time to speak that she was talking again. Finally she stopped talking and he managed to be able to open his mouth to actually say something. “Cordelia please think about this for a moment. You have meet someone are you sure you want to break things off with him?” he asked her. “Don’t jump into something just because I am back…” he wanted to make sure she really knew what she was doing. He really did want to be with her but he also didn’t want her to regret his choice later down the road. “Cordelia I would love to ask you for dinner of course but until this Ben guy, the vampire.” He said putting more emphasis on the word vampire than he should. “is still in the picture there is no way I can ask you out…I just cant do that.” He told her honestly.
Tag:: Cordelia
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Post by cordelia on Aug 15, 2013 20:53:26 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] Cordelia just wanted to be with Doyle, that was all she wanted but part of her was telling her to take it slowly. She thought about it and she thought it would be good for the both of them to take things slowly, at least for now as he was back and she had a lot to think about considering. She just wondered what the gang would think of him, they never knew Doyle. She knew Xander and him would hit it off instantly, she could just see it for some odd reason. Everyone else should be fine as well but still this wasn't about them, it was about her and him and if they should be together. She knew she was still dating Benny so she would have to break it off with him first but what she wanted was a date with Doyle and she was hoping that would happen very soon as she didn't really want to wait, but who knew how this situation would turn out.
Cordelia had always wondered what it would have been like if Doyle didn't die and they had stopped those demons in time. She thought a lot would be different like her liking Angel probably wouldn't have happened or the fact that got possessed or whatever. The demon showed her, her weakness which was playing the video of Doyle and she gave in and decided to watch from above. The two could have dated and broken up though so that could have happened or maybe they would have stayed in for the long run, she honestly didn't know and she wished she did. It didn't matter now since he was back and so was she which meant that they could create something and try again.
She needed time to figure stuff out even if she did want to date him right away. But the boy did just come back so she couldn't just randomly jump into a relationship. She wasn't sure how taking things slowly would do though, she would have to wait and see what happened. She couldn't just plan this was Doyle and her mind was so confused right now. She had hoped that he would be okay with her being in a relationship and that she was breaking it off for him, but with her luck probably not.
"Fine, I'll stop," she said trying to not cry. She didn't want to cry in front of the man but she couldn't help it, he made her emotional for some reason. She then listened to the man and she understood, she gave him a nod as she wiped her tears with the handkerchief he gave her. He was a hero for doing what he did but an idiot for ruining something that could be really good. She also understood that if it was Angel that was the one that died then a lot would have been worse in L.A. so Doyle did what was right even if it was painful for the people that cared about him. He did something that was selfless something that Cordelia couldn't do well the old her which made her love him even more. She knew she wasn't at love yet with him, she thought she was but she was just close to it and soon enough she would be in love.
He had removed his arms from her which made the girl frown as she still wanted his warmth. Doyle had to ask the stupidest question, of course she wanted to break things off her feelings were stronger for him. "Doyle, I know what I'm doing but it's clear that you don't want to be with me," she said crossing her arms. "Here I am trying to make this work and you're basically telling me to stay with a vampire you know someone who lives an eternity do you think that would make me happy in the end? As much as I love being hot I want to grow old..I want it all," she told Doyle honestly. Didn't he know that he was truly the only guy for her? She didn't want any other guy and she felt like he was the one. "Fine, be that way," she said feeling actually a bit hurt. Cordelia wasn't going to be a cheater or anything didn't Doyle trust her? She walked away from the man and sat on the nearest bench, it wasn't far but she needed her distance. She was expecting for him to ask her out and all that fun stuff but apparently not. God, she was so stupid! She just sat there feeling upset over the situation, this was not how it played in her head. She knew she couldn't just leave the man wandering the streets as she needed to take him to the house so he could have somewhere to stay but it just annoyed her how he was being but she did understand why he was.
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Post by doyle on Aug 19, 2013 7:22:47 GMT -6
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This was a bit much for the irish man. Even if he did want to be with Cordelia it was a lot to deal at once for one person. He had no idea what he was supposed to think about this whole thing. Maybe he had come out of hiding too soon. Maybe he should have waited a bit, waited until he had been okay with the fact that he had been dead and now he was back. Perhaps he should have waited for the moment where he would get a vision. Maybe it would have helped him know why he was still around. But it was too late now. He really wish he had a drink. That might help him or maybe it would not but he needed one anyway. Of course that was not something he could get right now, he didn’t really see himself asking Cordelia if she wanted to go to the pub so he could grab a quick drink.
He hated knowing that she had been in pain while he was gone that she had been in pain because of him. He had never wanted to cost her some harm. He had wanted her to be happy. And he knew it had been his fault if she was sad. He had not really had a choice in the matter but it was still his fault. Had he not died she would not have missed him. He wondered if all the bad things that had happen to her would have happen had it not been of him dying. But it was too late now. There was no way for him to know this. He could not change the past but he could make his own present and hopefully he could have one with her. really it was all he wanted to be with her and have her happy. Could he have that?
Doyle knew he wanted to be with her there was no questions there. The trouble was he didn’t know if she really wanted to be with him or if it was just the memories talking. Either way he knew he wanted her. He needed her around but he didn’t want to push her too much, he wanted to make sure that she was getting what she wanted out of this. That she was not jumping into something that could somewhat feel familiar. He wanted to be with her there was no questions there. But he knew time would be better in this situation.
Doyle gave her a small smile. He knew that this was hard for her and it was hard for him he was just better at getting his emotions under control. But yes inside he felt like he was dying this was so much to deal with all at once he had no idea what to think of this. He needed a break, a moment to figure out what he needed. But every part of him was screaming that it wanted her and only her, there was nothing he could do about it. He watched as she wiped away her tears wanting to see her smiling again. He needed to know that even though him being back had shook her up she was still the same woman he loved.
He had never fell out of love with her. He watched her and took a breath as she spoke. Clearly this is not going to be easy. ‘’Cordelia I`m not telling you to stay with the vampire, nor I`m am telling you I don’t want to be with you. I want you to be sure what you are doing. You owe to yourself but you also owe it to that Ben guy…’’ he looked at her and took her hand trying to force her to uncross her arms. ‘’There is no one else out there for me I am sure of it…But I want to make sure you are making the right decision…’’ he said trying to explain himself. He had never been good with words but he was not about to let her go without a fight he was sure of it. He followed her over to the bench where she had sat down. ‘’Listen Cordelia I love you . I do love you and I want to be with you…’’ he said standing up in front of her. ‘’and once you are sure this is what you want then we can grow old together…’’ he told her softly looking into her eyes.
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Post by cordelia on Aug 20, 2013 17:23:33 GMT -6
----------------------- [/b] -----------------------[/b] The girl just wanted to go home and lay in her bed and think about what had just happened tonight. She had felt like this was a good dream that went bad. She just didn't understand why the two couldn't be together right now. She was more than upset, she felt like everything was going wrong. He wanted her to break-up with Ben and she would of course do that she had no doubt in her mind. She had feelings for the vampire but it wasn't strong, she had recently thought that their relationship would have lasted but thinking right now she realized that they wouldn't have once the the whole her turning or not conversation came up.
She wanted Doyle and only him, but he couldn't see that for some reason. She understood why he didn't want to be with her at the moment the man just came back alive for crying out loud. But Cordelia wanted a future with him, she wanted to have it all, she knew that she loved this man or at least that she would come to love him as she cared for him immensely. She had thought she had moved on and was over him but him being back clearly showed that she hadn't moved on and she was okay with that but if he wanted to be that way then fine so be it, once she broke up with Benny she wouldn't date Doyle straight away since he wants to be single and she will be single to. The girl wasn't being immature she was just making this reasonable, not jumping into another relationship right away.
The girl had instantly wished she had Angel to talk to right now even though he wasn't the greatest person to go to when she needed advice but she felt like he would be the only one to relate. She then thought of Buffy in that moment, she would talk to her. Of course the two had a lot to talk about but this could be another thing. Buffy had to kill Angel so the situation was a bit different but still the girl had moved on and all that and when he came back things got complicated and she had realized she still loved Angel so Cordelia's situation was the same. She wondered what Doyle was thinking, did he truly want her back? Or was he just saying that right now? She didn't know and she was afraid to know the answer.
"I know," she said with a sigh. He was right it wouldn't be fair to Benny if she just started dating Doyle the man needed an explanation before she broke up with him and she couldn't be dating two people at the same time even if she was going to break-up with the other one. She let him take her hand even though she was resistant at first but feeling his hand she felt so warm. "Um, don't you think I think the same? I mean I've dated a lot of guys but you're the only one that I've truly cared about there's no other guy for me but you," she told the man honestly. Hearing the man's words basically made the girl cry, her eyes started to water. "I love you too," she told him actually saying it. It felt good to say it to be honest.
He wanted to grow old with her...he actually wanted to be with her for the long run and that made her feel happy and safe. The girl finally stood up and she looked in his eyes, he was telling the truth. "Doyle...," she said feeling a bit upset. She loved what he said but he was just making it harder for her to resist him. She said she would keep her distance but she couldn't. "I know I have to break things off with him and I will tomorrow but please...I need you right now," she went into hug him, she wanted him to hold her. "Please," she whispered.
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Post by doyle on Aug 23, 2013 13:01:07 GMT -6
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If only they could go back in time or at least stop it so they could figure out what their next step should be but of course it was not possible, not something he could do. Instead he had to wait, try and fix things. He hated it, he wanted Cordelia to be his right now, he wanted the world to know it but he could not, he had to keep things slow. Especially now that he knew there had been someone else in her life, he had no idea what he was supposed to do with this information. He wished he had not known that way he would not have to worry about it. But that would not have been fair for that Ben guy.
Even if Cordelia didn’t want to be with him anymore it didn’t mean that he didn’t deserve to be treated with respect. And it was why Doyle felt so uncomfortable with the whole thing. He wished that they didn’t have to wait after all of this was said and done. Because even once Cordelia did break up with that guy, would it be okay to jump into a relationship right away? Of course not. But then when would it be the right time and was there such a thing as the right time when it came to this? He was unsure and didn’t really think so. But at the same time he didn’t want to lose his chance to be with Cordelia so he was not sure what he was supposed to do right now.
Why did have to be so complicated? Why couldn’t they simply be happy. He had already given his life what else did the universe wanted out of him. He felt like it was about time he was able to catch a break. Maybe he needed to simply go after what he wanted and not care about the rest but it was not who he was. He could not do this. He wanted to make sure Corderlia wanted to do this and not that she was just trying to hold on to something that was the past. What if she realised that she really didn’t want to be with a demon. What if it became too much and she didn’t; want to be with him anymore. It could very well happen. How did Angel Buffy made it work. Maybe it would help him to not only talk with his friend but also with his soul mate would help him understand what he should be doing and how he should be doing it.
When he tried to take her hand, Doyle felt like she didn’t want to. “Cordelia you have to know that I want to be with you more than anything but it’s just that I don’t know where to start…I really just came back and it’s all so very confusing…” he tried to explain to her, trying to make sense of it all. “But I want to be with you more than anything. But I also want to do this the right way and the right way to do this is to be honest with that other guy first…” he told her before listening to her “You are the one good girl for me too.” He told her before reached over to touch her cheek as he saw her eyes water again. “Cordelia you have to stop crying it’s breaking my heart…” he told her with a sad smile. He had never felt this way about another girl before even when he had been married it had not been this way.
He wrapped his arms around her. “I need you do.” He said looking into her eyes. Why did she have to be so perfect to him, why did it have to be so hard for him to really be able to resist her. He needed her more than anything wanted to be with her. “you are making this so hard for me to resist you…” he told her, his eyes finding her holding her closer to him. He needed to let go, he needed to before he did something he could regret and yet he could not move away from her.
Tag:: Cordelia
Notes:: soon and he is taking her to the bbq thing
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like all she wants is him and she really wants to just embrace him forever. I feel so bad I can't wait for them to start dating though.