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Post by bonnie on Jan 28, 2012 11:47:45 GMT -6
--------------- ---------------Bonnie stared out the window of her home. She was absolutely bored and she couldn’t get in touch with Elena at all. Bonnie figured that Elena was busy and that when she could she would call her back. Maybe she should call Jeremy. She smiled thinking about Jeremy. She turned and looked at her desk. There was a picture of her and her grandmother on it. Taking the picture frame Bonnie stared at the picture. Tears started to pool in her eyes. She continued to stare at the picture. Her grandmother looked so happy and so at peace. Bonnie remembered that she looked that way in her coffin when they buried her. She was sad that her grandmother was gone. Every now and then Bonnie thought about her and the day she was buried. It hurt her to think about it but she knew she couldn’t ever forget her grams. Bonnie smiled at the thought of how her grams always taught her to be brave and face things head on. Her grams was always brave. Bonnie set the picture back down and started toward her door. She heard a noise outside. Wiping the tears that fell down her cheeks she hurried to the window and looked out. Nothing. Nothing was there at all. She ran down the stairs and ran outside and looked around. Nothing still. This was getting a little bit too creepy for Bonnie.
She went back inside grabbed her purse and her keys and headed out. She drove through town wondering where she should go. She parked her car at a café. After turning the car off she got out and locked it. She didn’t want anyone stealing her car. She liked it. She sat down and had some lunch. She had to go shopping after this. She quietly ate her lunch. After she finished her lunch she decided to walk around town. It wouldn’t hurt and she did like walking. She paid for her meal and then left the café. She walked down the street her heels clicking against the concrete. Bonnie kept looking around her hoping to run into Jeremy or Elena. She would just love the company. She sighed as she dug through her purse again to find her phone. She stopped for a moment and looked ahead of her. She tilted her head to the side wondering what made her raise her head. She just had a strange feeling and lately she learned to listen to them. She sighed and pulled out her phone. It was on vibrate so she was just checking to see if anyone called. No one. --------------- |
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Jan 29, 2012 13:46:04 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -She took a deep breath, this time not wanting to let it back out again. Things had gotten increasingly hard over the past few months and things like breaking and eating tended to escape her at the weirdest times. Sometimes she wished that she hadn’t made it through the sacrifice that had killed her aunt Jenna (and by default killed her biological father otherwise known as her adopted uncle John) just so she wouldn’t have to go through the things that she was going through now. Just so she wouldn’t have to see and hear about the things that she knew now. She wished she could be naïve again…wished she could be innocent again…and for a brief moment she wished that she had taken Stefan up on his offer for Damon to erase her memories all those months ago.
Part of me wishes that I could forget too...forget meeting you...finding out what you are and everything that has happened since.
If that's what you want.
Yes...it is...Because I don't want it to be like this...I don't wanna feel like this...but I can't. With everything that's happened I can't lose how the way I feel about you.
It hurt her to even think about losing the way she felt about Stefan but unfortunately with the way things were at the moment it almost seemed easier in the long run…but she knew she couldn’t. For one thing, who would she ask to compel her? Stefan wouldn’t do it…Damon wouldn’t do it…Caroline wouldn’t do it…and Lexi wouldn’t do it. So even if she wanted it, she was completely out of luck.
Elena looked in the mirror and frowned at her appearance. Her clothing choice was normal for her…a shirt, a sweater, and a pair of jeans paired with a pair of converse. Her new bracelet hung on her wrist and that’s when it hit her. Her neck felt bare. She touched the place gently where her necklace usually hung and for a moment she didn’t want to leave the house. Unfortunately they had no food in the house so she needed to head to get herself something to eat and then get groceries for the rest of the house. So she turned away from the mirror and headed out the door, heading towards the Town Square.
She headed towards a parking spot and parked her car, getting out and slamming the door. She was glad that no one she knew was around, but unfortunately that didn’t last long. She spotted her best friend in the small café across the street. She thought briefly about walking away without saying anything, really not in the mood for small talk, but she refused to be rude so instead she walked over to her table. “Hey Bonnie.”
Word Count:: 477
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: None at the moment
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Post by bonnie on Feb 4, 2012 9:46:02 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie wasn't exactly sure where she should go next. She hadn't been in the best of moods lately. She was worried about everything and she wanted to help Elena she really did. Bonnie just didn't think that Elena should be too trusting of Stefan right now. His humanity was turned off by Klaus and Bonnie didn't think that even Elena could bring him back from that. It was hard for her to think about yes. She considered Stefan a good friend. She really did but after all that has happened she just didn't trust him. She wanted Stefan as far away as possible. Bonnie didn't like vampires in the first place but she tolerated some because they were her friends. Damon, Stefan, and Caroline were all the exceptions to her hating vampries. Damon and Stefan she forgave and came to the conclusion that it wasn't their fault that her grandmother died. Damon had even became a great ally. Caroline didn't have a choice about becoming a vampire. Caroline had been her friend forever and it was half of Bonnie's fault that she was one. She had told Damon to feed her his blood to keep her alive. She didn't know Katherine would kill Caroline to turn her and mess with Elena and Stefan. They all had wanted the same thing. Klaus gone and Elena safe.
That was all anyone wanted and that was all anyone could ask. Bonnie knew that Stefan left to save Damon, but he just...he was still dangerous right now without his humanity. Bonnie didn't want Elena or anyone else getting hurt. She hated her friends getting hurt and not being able to do anything about it or being able to help any of them. That was her worst fear of all. All of her friends were dear to her and meant everything to her. She didn't know if she could have gotten through half of the things she did without her friends. Jeremy had been there for her a lot as well. Some things she would deffinatly not have gotten through without him. She smiled thinking about Jeremy. She wondered what he was up to and hoped he was okay. She was still at the cafe digging through her purse looking for her phone. Her purse was so big it was hard to find anything in it sometimes. She had to get a new purse but a smaller one. It was too big for what she was carrying around at the moment. She smiled as she found her phone and looked up in time to hear Elena. She smiled and said Hey Elena. How are you? [/color][/size] [/blockquote] ---------------[/center]
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Feb 4, 2012 19:06:00 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - -Elena looked around as she walked over. She could see couples all around her being that it was only a few days until Valentine’s Day. Couples walking around looking in the windows at engagement rings and things such as that. She could also see girls in groups looking and giggling at things that they could or couldn’t; should or shouldn’t buy for their boyfriends. The same could be said for the groups of guys walking around but instead of giggling and laughing, they seemed to be stressing and annoyed that they had to be out shopping for their girlfriend’s for Valentine’s day instead of sitting at home watching whatever type of sporting game was on television that day.
All in all watching those walk around trying to get things for their significant others simply made Elena feel more alone that she had when she got out of her car. She didn’t show it, at least tried not to show it, but her heart broke every time she saw something that reminded her of how far apart her and Stefan truly were. She couldn’t even talk to anyone about it because they all had turned their backs on Stefan in such a large way that it added to her heart break.
She almost was disgusted by the way that everyone had turned their backs on Stefan. Okay, she realized that even she had stopped trusting him for the most part as he was under Klaus’ compulsion, but that was the reason for his attitude. What was Damon’s excuse? He did everything that he had done with a smile on his face and his humanity turned on for gods sake and yet everyone always forgave him with no questions asked. Now that Stefan had left (in order to save his brother by the way) and was compelled to turn his humanity off everyone simply wrote him off.
She would admit that it was hard for her to look into his face right now and see the cold smirk and remember the times that he had held her so lovingly in his arms as if she was made of glass but so firmly that he never wanted to let her go. It was hard to hear the cold words come out of his mouth and remember all the times that he had told her he loved her. However that didn’t mean she had given up. As she had said months before…Stefan would never have given up on her and she wouldn’t give up on him.
That was part of the reason that she was a bit distant to her friends at the moment. They were acting as if they had never done anything bad to anyone else. They all had hurt people over the years and this was no different. Sure it was a bit more extreme than others, but not everyone.
She sighed and turned her attention back to Bonnie, hoping she didn’t see the almost glare that had been on her face before she settled in for an impassive smile and a shrug. “I’m fine…just tired. Worked out with Ric earlier and now here to try and track down some food since we seem to have none in the house. What about you?” She asked, only out of politeness instead of real interest. She knew she sounded cruel but she had so many things bottled up and she couldn’t even speak to her best friends about them because they wouldn’t understand. It was a lonely life she lead now and it was just another reason that she missed Stefan…because with him she could tell him everything.
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Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: Yeah, Elena’s a bit PMSy. Lol
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Post by bonnie on Feb 23, 2012 15:12:44 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie knew she hadn't been the best best friend. For that she was sorry. She hated being the not best best friend Elena deserved and needed. Bonnie knew that and sometimes. Bonnie lost her head. She always came back though and Bonnie needed to be there for Elena. She needed to Elena's best friend again. She felt horrible about all this. Sometimes Bonnie didn't think some things think through before she acted or spoke. Bonnie knew she should and that she shouldn't be so stubborn to admit that she was wrong, but she didn't want to lose Elena as a friend. She hadn't yet but who is to say one day they would never speak again. Bonnie didn't want that and she didn't want to fight with her. She couldn't lose Elena. She cared for her friend.
Bonnie knew also that she had no reason to feel like this. She knew what was causing a rift between them. It was Stefan. Elena hated that Bonnie didn't trust him and hardly was helping. Bonnie knew she should be doing more. Stefan had saved her life and Bonnie knew she needed to help Stefan. Bonnie just didn't want to admit that she was wrong. Bonnie knew she needed to apologize to Elena. That is when she saw her again. Maybe she should go to Elena'a house? She kept thinking about it as she dug through her purse looking for her phone. She should call Elena, apologize for everything, hope that Elena would forgive her, and have a nice calming shopping spree.
That was when she saw her though as if Elena had been reading her mind. That was a scary thought but she was glad that Elena was here. She needed to talk to her. Bonnie knew how she had been acting hurt her friend. This whole thing had been hard for Elena. She lost her parent's before this started, she then fell in love with Stefan and Klaus took him way. Klaus also took her away her Aunt Jenna. This was also hard on Jeremy, Elenas younger brother. She smiled at Elena and hurried to her friend hugging her. Elena I am so sorry. I really am. Forgive me please [/color] she said. She stepped back and looked at her. How are you Elena[/color] she asked? She hadn't spoken to Elena in a long time, well it seemed like a long time. It was a long time for Bonnie. [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center]
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Tag: Elena Gilbert
Outfit:OMG! IT'S CLICKABLE
Notes: sorry it took so long and it's sort of crappy but Bonnie wants to make up for not being the best best friend obviously xp[/size] |
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Feb 23, 2012 23:27:50 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - -Okay, it was clear that Bonnie was not listening to her and didn’t want to be involved in this conversation either. She had just asked her how she was and she had told her that she was fine, how she had just got done working out with Alaric and was now looking for some food. However her so called best friend simply told her that she was sorry and then once again asked her how she was and what had been going on. Clearly there was no interest or real concern on her friend’s part as far as Elena was concerned.
Elena rolled her eyes. “You’re saying you’re sorry but do you really even know what you are apologizing for Bonnie?” She asked her, her tone clearly stating that it was obvious she didn’t find Bonnie’s apology at all sincere. She and the Bennett witch had been best friends since they were five years old and for the first time in as far as she could remember Elena really didn’t feel like she knew her at all. She had always been able to go to Bonnie with everything and she knew without a doubt that she would be there. Unfortunately times had changed and things didn’t seem to be moving on in the same way they once had.
She knew that a lot of the separation between herself and her best friend was her fault and she hated that, but really what could she do? They had started drifting apart ever since Bonnie’s Grams had died after she had helped her get Stefan and Damon out of the tomb. She had felt awful about the whole situation because it hadn’t even occurred to her that Bonnie would blame Stefan for it. She knew it was ridiculous but the thought really hadn’t crossed her mind.
Bonnie eventually said that she had forgiven Stefan, well, okay, not really, but she had seemed to get over it. Now it seemed she was back to hating Stefan again which bothered the brunette doppelganger more than she cared to admit. She knew that Stefan had done some pretty screwed up things recently, but none of them had been directed at Bonnie and really none of them had concerned her…so why she was so against him she really had no idea.
Elena shook her head, trying to gather her thoughts. “Look, you and I need to have a good long talk Bonnie. You flip flop back and forth constantly…and its driving me a bit crazy.” She told her, waiting for her response.
Word Count:: 441
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: Yeah, Elena’s mad.
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Post by bonnie on Mar 1, 2012 17:27:32 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie couldn’t believe what was coming out of Elena’s mouth. Yes she was really sorry. She had hurt her friend and she hated herself for it. Bonnie wanted nothing more than to fix what was wrong between them and for things to go back to how they were. She wanted to help with Stefan and make Elena happy. Yes Bonnie admitted that she had been a baby and a spoiled brat about the whole Stefan thing. She should have done a better job with it and been there for Elena. Elena was always there for her when things had gone wrong. Bonnie felt horrible for not being there for her. It was tearing her apart on the inside just thinking. Yes I do Elena. I made a mess of things considering Stefan. I acted like a spoiled brat. I could have and should have done a better job at being your friend. You needed me and I wasn’t there this time. For that I am truly and deeply sorry Elena [/color] she said. Bonnie frowned at how Elena’s tone was and looked off into the distance burying her emotions. Bonnie knew she deserved for Elena to give her the cold shoulder. Bonnie knew she deserved whatever Elena decided to do. She didn’t want to stop being friends with Elena though and she hated the thought of that happening. Bonnie knew they needed to talk things through. She looked down a few tears escaping as she realized just how bad things had gotten. The two had avoided each other and it just escaladed. Bonnie hated that and wanted to fix it. Yet again it was Bonnie’s fault that they were even fighting in the first place. She wiped away a few tears and looked at Elena. She knew Elena was pissed. Hell if the roles were reversed Bonnie would be pissed to. Bonnie nodded at what Elena said about that they needed to talk. She wanted to talk. She wanted to get over this and help Elena. Bonnie was in total help Elena help Stefan mode now. Bonnie had done a lot of thinking over the past couple of weeks. Yes she didn’t trust Stefan, that wouldn’t change right now. But what Bonnie needed to do was to help Elena get the old Stefan back, the one that Bonnie did trust with her and her friend’s life. That was the Stefan that needed to be with them now. I agree Elena. I want to talk. I know I do and it is totally wrong. I should be there for Stefan, for you. No matter what he has done recently he is a great guy and has saved all of us a lot. We should do the same for him. It is only fair. I am sorry it took me so long to realize that[/color] she said looking at her friend. [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center]
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Mar 3, 2012 0:02:24 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - -Elena nodded her head at her best friend. She was shocked herself at some of the things that were coming out of her mouth when it came to her best friend as well as the thoughts that were rolling around in her head. Elena wasn’t one to cause waves when it came to her best friends. She’d fight with Damon and other people until the end of time…but when it came to Caroline or Bonnie she tended to try and be the peacemaker. She had grown up in that roll and it was something that came easily to her. She tried not to get in the middle of things and always tried to make things better…so this fight that she was currently having with her best friend was something that was completely out of character for her.
Unfortunately she knew that she was in the right on this one and she knew that she had to be the one to defend her position. Deep down she found it ironic that really, Stefan had done nothing to anyone else except her. It had been her that he hurt, her that he had left, and her that had been abandoned. He hadn’t hurt anyone, killed anyone (that they knew), nor had he really even spoken out of turn to anyone (other than Damon and Alaric)…so why everyone was so pissed off at him really made absolutely no sense. If people wanted to be pissed at someone, channel that anger to who it really belongs to…Klaus.
She was enraged with Caroline as well for the same reason, but that conversation would come later. Stefan had been such a good friend to Caroline and she had turned her back on him fairly quickly as well. She would deal with that later as Caroline had at least been smart enough to not mention Stefan around her at the moment.
“You should be.” She told her. “But you shouldn’t be sorry to me, you should be sorry to Stefan. I know that he’s acting like an ass right now…he was compelled by Klaus. However when he comes back to himself and he will, do you know what he’s going to go through? He’s going to have so much guilt to deal with it won’t even be funny. He might leave Bonnie because he won’t want to see the people that he thought of as friends, as family, who he supposedly hurt look at him with the disgust in their eyes that you’ve worn since he was compelled. Do you remember how many times he’s saved everyone’s lives? Do you remember how he got into this mess in the first place? You act like he just decided that he wanted to go off and have a bit of fun. No. He did it to save Damon.” She stated with a sneer.
“I’m sorry that I’m being harsh because Bonnie I love you, you’re my best friend. But I love Stefan…he’s…my…I don’t even know what he is but he’s it for me. It’s always going to be him. No matter what happens…even if we never get him back…I will always love him and that’s why I need you to stand behind me on this. I need help to try and figure out a way to get him back. I don’t know how to break the compulsion and I’ve got people looking into it but I need everyone’s help and everyone’s support. It’s breaking me not having anyone backing me up besides Lexi…it kills me inside.”
Word Count:: 635
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: I haven’t gotten to really play Elena mad yet and I always have felt like she should have yelled at Bonnie a few times now where she’s just sort of taken it…so here’s my solution. Lol
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Post by bonnie on Mar 3, 2012 10:17:42 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie just took whatever Elena had to say. She was listening to her friend and Bonnie deserved every word that came at her. That didn’t mean that the words didn’t hurt. They sliced through like a knife cutting through her heart. What was that saying ‘sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt?’ Whoever said that never had their best friend tearing them a new one with words. Bonnie was on the brink of tears but she knew Elena was right. She knew she could have done better. There had been times that Bonnie had taken the high road and some other times where she had been a total pain in the ass before taking the high road.
Bonnie was at fault here no matter how much she didn’t want to be. It was tough yes but the toughest part was actually admitting that she was wrong and then doing something about it. Bonnie knew she had issues to work on when it came to vampires and such. She still had issues with Damon and Stefan. She never wanted to admit it, even when she got close to Stefan and Damon a bit as friends that she had been waiting for them to slip just once. That thought was always at the back of her mind and she never wanted to admit it to Elena. She still didn’t. She never wanted to admit that ever not even to herself. She felt horrible about all this and she knew she needed to make things right again. She needed to help Elena, help Stefan.
Bonnie nodded at Elena’s next words. She was right. She should be sorry to Stefan but she should also be sorry to Elena for just leaving her high and dry like that when it came to Stefan recently. Yes to Stefan to but also to you. I left you alone in this Elena and I am sorry. I will do whatever you want and need me to do. I promise [/color] she said to her friend. Bonnie looked at Elena with sad eyes. Like noted before she did feel bad about all this. We need to do something about Klaus. I just…I just don’t know what or how[/color] she said to Elena. Bonnie sighed and ran a hand through her hair. She looked at Elena and took her hands. And when he comes back we will help him through it Elena. I promise. No more judging Stefan for anything[/color] she said. Bonnie shook her head. No you have every right to be harsh. What I did to you, to Stefan was wrong. I just hope I can get the opportunity to apologize to the real Stefan you know[/color] she said. Bonnie knew Stefan hadn’t been himself lately and she knew why he had gone with Klaus. It was his love for his brother. Something that Stefan didn’t have to have for Damon after how Damon had treated him in the past. Stefan is in fact a lot braver and nicer than me. He left for his brother someone who hardly treated him well over the years. You are lucky Elena and you deserve to have him back and we will get him back Elena[/color] she said. [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center] [/size] |
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Mar 3, 2012 11:22:00 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - -Elena took a deep breath, knowing that Bonnie had deserved everything she had said but then also feeling immensely guilty for it as well. She hated fighting with people, especially those that she loved. She hated fighting with anyone to be honest, but it made it worse when she fought with people she cared about. Things were stressful enough with not only Klaus and Rebekah and the rest of the originals, but just with them being in the minority of people around that knew about the supernatural things that went bump in the night. None of them could afford to judge people or to lose the few people around them that knew about the other things around as well.
With that being said, she couldn’t help but feel betrayed by those closest to her. She was protective of everyone that she loved, which doubled for Stefan. She knew that he had never hurt her when he hadn’t had the choice taken from him. She could still remember Klaus dragging her in the cafeteria and the look on Stefan’s face as he tried to drive a wooden mop handle through him just so he wouldn’t hurt her even though he was compelled to.
I don't believe that. You can fight it, you just have to want it bad enough!
Why because I love you?
Yeah! That's right Stefan because you love me! You'll fight because after everything we've been through you owe me that!
You know what you're right. You're right. I owe you everything. Because through all this you're the one thing that has kept me from giving up. From turning it all off. But I can't help what I am Elena.
She could still remember when he begged her to run from him, something that she had sworn she would never do.
Elena you're going to have to run.
But Klaus said if I run...
I know what he said but if you stay it won’t matter...Elena please please please. Elena there's no other way.
There is another way Stefan...it's for you to fight. Stefan, I love you. Fight Stefan, don't give up!
I can't hold it. ELENA RUN! GO!
Elena shook her brunette hair, though it lay flat against her shoulders as usual. She wasn’t sure why her mind was going back to this but she knew that she had to make Bonnie understand how things had gotten to where they were. Her face scrunched up as she remembered the last time she had seen the look of pain in Stefan’s eyes.
Now this is fascinating I've never seen this before. The only thing stronger than your craving for blood is your love for this one girl.
Why don't you turn it off?
No
Come on...your humanity is killing you. All the guilt must be exhausting. Turn if off.
No
Stefan...
You're strong...but you're not that strong. Turn. It. Off.
NO!
TURN IT OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What did you do?
I fixed him.
Elena shook her head, needing to come back to the present and stop living in the past, something that she had been increasingly likely to do recently and it had started to worry her.
“I need him back Bonnie. I never thought I would find myself in a situation where I depended on a guy. Even when Matt and I were together I still could function without him. Granted I can still function without Stefan but this is awful. Every time I look at him I want to break down. Do you know what it’s like to hear the words coming out of his mouth…calling me a human blood bag and telling me that nothing we went through mattered…and to remember the times when he held me…when we kissed…when he said he loved me. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, and that’s saying something since my worst enemy is Klaus.” She stated, the tears finally falling down her porcelain cheeks.
Word Count:: 703
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note::Sorry I didn’t give you a lot to work with in this post. I used a lot of quotes from the episode but I feel like that would be running through her mind constantly.
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Post by bonnie on Mar 3, 2012 11:47:58 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie honestly didn’t know what to do or say. She could only say so much to Elena and she had said it all already. She just had to continue being there for Elena no matter what. Elena deserved that much and more. Bonnie knew that as well. Elena would do anything for anyone and never really ask for anything in return. She just loved helping someone out. Bonnie didn’t deserve someone like Elena as a friend at times. There were times Bonnie acted like a spoiled brat and that wasn’t right. Bonnie knew better. She knew she had a lot to work on. She wanted to be better and a better friend, not only to Elena, Caroline, and Stefan but to Jeremy as well. She wanted to be a better friend and girl friend to him. No they were not fighting right now but she was fighting with his sister and that couldn’t be good for him either.
Bonnie sighed and brushed another brown curl away from her face. She needed to help Elena. She knew she couldn’t get her mind off of Stefan. That would and is impossible since Elena was constantly worrying about him. Before now Bonnie wasn’t that worried and it made her heart ache more. She should have been worried for her friend. Like noted before she had some issues to work through. She knew they all deserved better. She would make sure she was a better friend to them all. Her mind drifted to Jeremy and how she would feel if something like this would have happened to him. She had never really thought of it this way. Maybe if she had she would have come to the conclusion that Elena was right and she was wrong sooner.
Bonnie looked at her friend as she spoke again. She nodded as she tried to understand how she felt. Thinking about Jeremy and if he was in Stefan’s place made her understand better, which she should have much sooner than she had. I know Elena and we will get him back for you I promise alright [/color] she said. She sighed and ran a hand through her hair again. Bonnie shook her head and said No I don’t know what it is like and I know this sounds selfish a bit, but I hope I never know what that is like. I would hate it if Jeremy ever said that to me.[/color] [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center] [/size] |
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Mar 4, 2012 12:42:35 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - “I’m sorry too.” She started out, knowing that she did owe her friend an apology. “I shouldn’t have spoken to you the way that I did. I know that you have issues when it comes to Stefan and vampires and I don’t blame you. I probably would too if I wasn’t in love with one.” She stated with a self-deprecating laugh. It was true though. She had basically had her life ruined by Klaus, who was an original vampire, granted, now he was a full blown hybrid, but the fact still remained. He had essentially ruined her life and if anyone had any reason to hate vampires it would definitely be her. However it was a bit difficult to hate vampires when she was in love with one.
“I know that vampires have essentially ruined all of our lives. I know that Bonnie. Meeting Stefan and Damon…it’s changed everything. Unfortunately I can’t blame that on them.” She told her, and was struck by the similarity of this conversation to one that she had had with Stefan the previous year.
Elena?
I can't talk about it Stefan.
You have too...don't shut me out. Elena please.
I wanted to know the truth Stefan, and I got it. It's not just me that's in danger. It's Caroline and it's Tyler and it's Bonnie. They're all part of breaking the curse. I can't blame anyone else anymore. Because it's not because you came into town or because you and I fell in love...that's not why everyone I love is in danger. It's because of me, everything is because of me.
“If you want to blame anyone blame Klaus, hell blame me.” She stated, her eyes shining with tears that she wouldn’t let fall.
“Bonnie it’s because of me that Klaus came here. It’s because of me that vampires came into this town. Even Stefan and Damon. Stefan came here originally to check on his family. But he heard the crash and he went to see if he could help. He got me out and noticed I looked like Katherine. He stayed because he had to make sure that I wasn’t Katherine…and as he watched me, he fell in love with me. Damon came here to torture Stefan, and essentially stayed because of me. Elijah came here because of me, Klaus came here because of me. So if you want to blame someone, blame me. Blame John and Isobel for having me. Just stop blaming other people for my mistakes.” She told her, begging her at this rate. “I know you hate vampires. I know that because of trying to save Stefan and Damon, your grams was killed and I will never stop feeling guilty about that. Because really, that was my fault too. Stefan ran in to save me…and that was the cause. So if you want to hate someone, hate me. I deserve it.” She told her, looking down at the table in front of her, trying to well the tears back.
Word Count:: 528
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: Awwwww, poor Elena. I feel so bad for her sometimes…okay, really most of the time. Lol
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Post by bonnie on Mar 20, 2012 15:08:47 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie gave her best friend, Elena Gilbert, a smile. You have nothing to be sorry for Elena. You love Stefan and no matter what he does you still love him. I get it I really do. I finally looked at it from your prospective like if Jeremy was in Stefan’s place and all. I would still love Jeremy no matter what and want to protect him and help him any way I could if he needed it. I get it. [/color] she said as she looked at Elena. It was true that even though Bonnie couldn’t stand Stefan right now she understood where Elena was coming from. So Bonnie would help Elena with Stefan no matter what. Bonnie smiled when Elena laugh she nodded and laugh with her friend. Yeah and if we had switched places and the conversation would be a little different. I would be in love with the vampire and so after thinking about all that I am truly sorry Elena. If I were in your shoes I would want my friends by my side. So here I am Elena, by your side[/color] she said. Bonnie shook her head. Yeah meeting them changed our lives but it didn’t really ruin our lives. Like me and Jermey. I am not sure if we would have end up together if they hadn’t come here. We just wouldn’t have spent the time to get to know each other but we did. Things are difficult and you know me I like to blame someone when they are it was just easier to blame and be made at Stefan[/color] Bonnie sighed and looked down. She was trying to say the right things so that meant thinking before she said anything. Bonnie shook her head at her friends’ statement. Elena I could never really be mad at you. Never[/color] she said as she hugged her friend. She didn’t want Elena to start crying because if Elena did then Bonnie would surely follow. Maybe they needed to cry. Maybe they both needed to good cry. Bonnie had been holding in a lot of her emotions she felt like sometimes she would scream or burst even. It wasn’t good for you that was for sure. She looked at Elena and shook her head. No it’s not because of you Elena. You are making it sound like you asked for this but you didn’t[/color] she said and Elena continued with her rampaged of words. She honestly thought Bonnie should blame her. That was far from the truth. It wasn’t like Elena asked for all this to happen. Elena was one of her best friends and Bonnie had been making her feel guilty and like everything was her fault without even knowing it. Talk about being the worst person ever. At this point Bonnie couldn’t help it. The tears just started to come. Elena Isobel Gilbert this is not your fault. You hear me. You have nothing to be sorry for or guilty for. I am over Gram’s death. Yeah it still hurts but she knew what she was doing and she wanted to help. If she were alive right now to see me she would be pissed and tell me how much of a brat I am being about all this. Elena I am so sorry I didn’t mean to make you feel guilty or like any of this is your fault because it isn’t. I am a horrible person Elena. I wasn’t there for you and I am just so sorry. I can’t apologize enough for what I did. I just hope you can forgive me one day[/color] she said as she looked at her friend, tears pouring down her face. Bonnie had to sit down in a chair by the café she had just eaten at. [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center] [/size] |
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Post by Elena Isobel Gilbert on Mar 23, 2012 15:28:59 GMT -6
- - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - -She heard Bonnie’s comment about putting herself in Elena’s shoes. She wanted to interrupt and say that she didn’t wish her shoes on anyone but before she could her best friend continued on talking about if it was Jeremy. Elena suppressed the shiver that ran up her back when she thought about Jeremy being in the situation that Stefan was in. Most sisters hated talking about their brother’s love lives. She didn’t want any of the gory details but she was able to detach herself for the most part and listen to her best friend speak about her boyfriend, as long as she tried to forget that it was her brother.
This however was not one of those times. She couldn’t help but wince at the thought of Jeremy as a vampire. She never wanted that, it was the reason she had freaked out so badly when she found out that he had drank Anna’s blood and then swallowed a bunch of pills in order to try and kill himself. She hadn’t understood why he had wanted to be a vampire, she still really didn’t, especially since both Anna and Vicky at that point had been dead. She had learned later that it had been so he could shut off his emotions, which broke her heart to an almost irreparable level, but she digressed.
She smiled softly at the dark headed witch in front of her when she said she was by her side. “Thanks Bonnie.” She stated, her eyes welling with tears but none of them fell. She felt like she was all cried out anymore, having cried way too much over the past few months. She hated to feel like she was becoming hardened because of everything, but it was really the only way she could cope. She hoped it would wear off when things settled down, if they did, but at the moment she had to keep the mask up so she didn’t fall apart.
Elena wrapped her arms around her best friend, hugging her back fiercely. She had missed Bonnie more than words could say. She and Bonnie had drifted apart since they had found out about the world they truly lived in. She and Caroline had gotten closer simply because of necessity with Caroline being a vampire and Elena being the doppelganger and in love with a vampire. Bonnie had sort of stepped aside as she didn’t want to get involved in everything, though she was there when they needed her thankfully.
“I know I didn’t ask for this, but it’s still my fault. If John and Isobel wouldn’t have had me this mess would never have been started. Klaus wouldn’t get the doppelganger, meaning he would have never become a hybrid. That means that Tyler wouldn’t have been turned into a hybrid freak, Stefan would have never been compelled to turn off his humanity, Jenna would still be alive, and lots of other things wouldn’t have happened if I would have never been born.” She stated, getting more and more worked up. “Do you know how many times I’ve wondered if it would have been better had I died in the sacrifice like planned?” She asked, mumbling it. Not really speaking to Bonnie this time, more like speaking to herself.
Word Count:: 565
Tag:: Bonnie Bennett
Outfit:: Click for Elena’s outfit
Note:: Poor Elena. Poor Bonnie. TVD TONIGHT 
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Post by bonnie on Mar 29, 2012 16:43:56 GMT -6
------------------------------Bonnie had hoped that Elena would forgive her. She missed her friend dearly and wanted her back. She wanted to spend hours just hanging out again like they use to, talk about boys and such. Bonnie wanted to get back to some normal in her life. Bonnie Elizabeth Bennett was a witch yes in a town with vampires, werewolves, hybrids, and one doppelganger. Bonnie didn’t want that to be all her life. She wanted normal and normal hadn’t been happening lately. She had let what happened to Stefan tear her and Elena apart. Maybe that was what Klaus hoped for anyway. Maybe he figured if she and Elena weren’t friends anymore that Bonnie wouldn’t help her.
Thinking about Klaus also made her think of Jeremy. She wanted Jeremy far away from Klaus as possible. It didn’t help that he wanted to be in the middle of things helping, though she did think it was sweet of him how he was always trying to help. She loved him for it but she didn’t want him getting killed because of it. She didn’t know if the ring he wore had a number of times it could bring him back to life. She didn’t want to take that chance either. When Elena told her thanks she smiled at her friend. Bonnie would be there for her no matter what. They would fight from time to time but no one not even old Klaus could tear them apart completely. That was because Elena and Bonnie were such great, awesome friends.
Bonnie and Elena hugged and Bonnie didn’t want to let go. They had fought for so long, but she was glad Elena forgave her. Jeremy had been right of course and she smiled at the thought. She would have to tell him as soon as she saw him again that her and Elena were okay and that he was right. Bonnie finally pulled away and smiled at her best friend. Her smile soon turned to a frown at her friends words. Elena Isobel Gilbert don’t talk like that. Even if you weren’t born she would have had another child probably. Somehow, some way there would be a doppelganger, even if it isn’t you. You can’t help who your parent’s are or all this alright. So just stop [/color] she said. Bonnie then added if you had died it would have been terrible Elena. Please don’t think like this.[/color] [/size][/blockquote] ---------------[/center] [/size] |
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