::open:: Run to the hills

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Bonnie had decided to go back to working out. Not that she felt that she needed to but for her mind she figured it would help. A healthy mind in a healthty body or something like that they said right? and now that she was not cheerleading again, she knew that she needed to find another way to keep herself in shape. At first she had though of picking up running but it didn’t take her long to realise that she might have been seeing things a bit too big. After 10 minutes of her first time running she felt like she was going to die right here and there. So after that she had went back home and decided that jogging was more of her thing at least for now, maybe eventually she would be able to move on to something else but for now, jogging was going to be the way to go for her. She tied up her shoes and made sure her pony tail was tight enough before walking out of the house and down the driveway.

Before she started to job, Bonnie put her ear buds into her ears and place her ipod into the arm thing she had gotten for it. As soon as the music started to blare into her ears she started to walk down the streets until she reached the little path and from there she started to jog. It had been so long since the last time she had done any type of workout if you didn’t count the moment where she had tried to run that it made her wonder how this was going to go. She figured he would just start like this and from there she would be able to see how it went, she was going to make sure to not push herself too much. There was no need to hurt herself anyway. It didn’t take long before she felt like she was completely in the zone simply focused on her feet hitting the ground with each step and the music into her ears and it was good to finally be able to not think about anything.

While her own personal life was rather simple, the same could not be said for her friends and it was what worried her. She wanted to make sure they were kept safe. But with everything that had been going on lately it was hard to know. She needed to make sure she kept in touch with her friends. She spent far too much time away from them lately. And with everything all of them had been dealing with they needed some time to just chill and not talk about all the hard stuff going on. She made a quick mental note that she would reach out to her girlfriends and demand some hang out time soon enough.


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[Stefan Demetrio Salvatore]

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Stefan couldn't take being cooped up in the house any longer. He had the BBQ to look forward to, he guessed he looked forward to it, he wasn't sure. Stefan looked forward to spending the day with friends, and even family if Damon showed up. But being around everyone else, and all that... blood. Fresh blood in the vain. Just thinking about it made him want to lose control, but he knew that he couldn't, he would be letting to many people down, and that was not a good thing. Not now, not after he and Elena got back together last night.

Stefan couldn't take it anymore and had to get out. He ran through the woods, doing his normal workout, stopping to snack on a bunny, Lexi wanted him on half and half, and he wasn't complaining, but hunting was also 2nd nature for Stefan and it helped curb the cravings. As long as he wasn't hunting some humans, then no one would complain. He was still drinking the half and half, rather he had to mix it himself, or when Lexi or Elena came over they sometimes did it for him. That was the worst part, the babying. Like they didn't trust him.

It only added to his guilt. Stefan was doing some sit ups when he first heard it. His vampire hearing picking up the sound of music not that far away. He ignored it hoping to continue his workout in peace. He then smelled them, a human. Stefan stopped doing his sit ups and just sat there, looking in the direction he knew the person was hiking from. Stefan liked being out here alone, it gave him time to think, it gave him time to reflect. He didn't really need to work out, Elena would be the first to say that to him, but it just felt normal, and Stefan wanted to be normal.

He stood up and ran up to where the music was coming from. Stefan didn't have a real goal in mind, he just wanted to see who it was. Wanted to find out who would be crazy enough to run through the woods alone. As the music grew louder he pin pointed the source and it was coming from none other then Bonnie Bennett. Bonnie was anything but crazy and she could take care of herself if she had to, being a witch and all. So Stefan wasn't shocked or mad at her for being out here. He approached her, making sure to approach her in eye sight so he didn't scare her.

Bonnie and Stefan never did have the best of relationships. His latest stunts sure as hell didn't help any. But that is why he decided to talk to her instead of walk away, he wanted to clear the air. Bonnie was Elena's best friend, Elena never did tell him who was closer to her between Bonnie and Caroline, but they were both important to her. Stefan motioned for her to take out her ear buds. Stefan hoped that Elena at least filled her in, if not then he was gonna have to.

Tags: Bonnie Bennett, Open
Words: 523
Notes: Hope it was ok I had Stefan jump in, been meaning to have him reply to this, but needed some of his other threads to end first.

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Bonnie had been falling out of touch with her friends recently but at least they were all making a effort to keep in touch. At least they had the BBQ coming up shortly and it would give them something positive to look forward to but also a good reason to meet with each other. It would not be because something wrong was going on but just for something good and this was great. Meeting with your friends was also fun but when you ended up meeting with them because there was something wrong well then it was not that great.


Now the last time they had meet things had not been that great but Bonnie didn’t want to focus on that. It could actually be for something good. It didn’t mean that someone was going to do something stupid this time around. They were still facing the consequences of the last time around, when Stefan had attacked Elena and lost his humanity. And no matter how much Bonnie had wanted to tell him off she had managed to keep her mouth shut about the whole thing. There was no need for her to add to everything that was already going on between all of them. They knew how she felt about vampires, there was no need to add to the matter.

And while she knew that Stefan had never wanted to hurt Elena that he loved her more than anything and he would do anything to protect her, that he would die for her, she could not help but be mad at him and she doubted that anyone would blame her for it. It was feelings and it was not as if she could control them. She was not going to tell Stefan he had been a jerk because of it, she would simply keep quiet. At least for now. She knew better than to try and get Elena to see things her way.


Bonnie’s mind was slowly emptying until she felt someone close but as she looked around she had yet to find that person but soon enough she saw him coming from between trees. Stefan. And while she didn’t want to, she could not help but feel slightly scared as he walked closer to her. She was sure that he was back to normal but at the same time who knew how normal he was now, he had been rather strange lately. After what had happen to him, it was mostly normal.



Bonnie came to a stop and looked at him, taking the earphones out “Hey Stefan” she told him trying to calm her breathing after the running and of course the whole being scared part. “how are you?” she asked awkwardly.


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[Stefan Demetrio Salvatore]

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Gaining the trust again of all of the people that cared about Elena was gonna be an uphill climb. But Stefan wanted to try, Caroline of course after her initial anger, which was complete expected, she began to open up to him and the two began talking like old friends once again, like nothing happened. Bonnie on the other hand, her trust for Stefan already was close to non-existent before all this happened, and now that it did happen, there was no trust left, what little was is now gone. Stefan didn't blame her for not trusting him back then, and he won't for her not trusting him now.

Stefan was the man who put Elena and all her friends and family in these dangerous positions to begin with. Would Caroline even have turned into a vampire if Stefan stayed away from Mystic Falls? Would Bonnie's Gram passed away if not for him? Would Jenna's life been taken from her if Stefan had not dated Elena? The truth was, everything that happened to this community since his return weighed more heavily on him then the stuff he did with his emotions off. At least he has a sort of excuse for those actions. The only excuse he had for ruining everyone'es lives was "I had to know her, I loved her."

Sure no one ever blamed him for it, at least not out loud, but that didn't stop him from blaming himself however. "Hey Bonnie, listening to anything good?" Stefan asked her, trying to ease the clear tension just his presence was causing her. He doubted Bonnie was listening to Bon Jovi, but he was sure she had good taste in music none the less. Stefan began to wonder why it was he thought it was a good idea to greet her in the first place. She probably didn't want him around and she sure as heck didn't trust him, he was the guy who murdered people for fun after all, the guy who hurt her best friend.

"All things considered?" Stefan asked her when she asked how he was. He was a train wreck, that's how he was. He was handling it a lot better then he did in the past, and that was cause of Elena. She was the one thing he never had in the past that he had now. Stefan also felt that she really didn't need an answer. Was he suppose to say everything was fine when it wasn't? Lie to her? Or was he suppose to tell the truth and hope she shows him pity and doesn't completely hate his guts? There was no answer he could give to her that would suffice in this situation in Stefan's mind.

"I'm more concerned about you." Stefan said, deciding not to answer her question unless she pressed him, though she probably could guess what the answer was if she did ask again. Stefan tried to smile at her, but he knew it would do very little good. "I can't even begin to apologize as I know it won't begin to express how sorry I am." Stefan began, not really knowing where to go with the conversation in the first place. "I wish I didn't do the stuff I did, I wish I didn't hurt and scare Elena, and I can't even imagine how you feel about me and what happened." Stefan told her leaning against a tree.

"You wouldn't have a spell to make everything instantly better would you?" Stefan said in a half joke half serious tone.

Tags: Bonnie Bennett, Open
Words: 590
Notes: Yes, yes it will.

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Bonnie had never really trusted Stefan. Well she had trusted him until she had found out who he was and when her grandmother had died it had become impossible for her to be able to trust him. But she had wanted to do her best because she knew how much Elena loved him, and with Caroline also being a vampire it had meant that she needed to learn to trust vampires again. But this trust had became shattered when Stefan had done what he had done to Elena. Bonnie did not know if they were ever going to be able to find a way to get over this, part of her doubted it.

But she also knew that she had to make an effort for the sake of her best friend. At least if she tried to get to understand why Stefan had acted the way he had or at least hear him out she could say she had tried. But it was hard, it was not like he was making this easy, the whole Elena thing had really hurt her and if she was being honest it had also scared her and she was not sure what to think about this. But at the same time she knew that Stefan really did love Elena she could easily see it with the way he was looking at her so she could not help but wonder how he felt. He was after all most likely one of the most human vampire, if she could say it like this.

Bonnie could see he was thinking this was as awkward as she did and for some reason it did make her feel better. Perhaps it was because she would have hated it if he had been acting as if everything was right when clearly it was not. So really all she needed was to wait andtry to talk to him and try to see if she could really do this. Part of her wanted t and of course another part of her didn`t. ‘’umm just some Michael Jackson, it has been my work out music for a while now.`’’ She explained to him with a small smile.


‘’well I mean after everything that as went on I figured that you would most likely not be feeling that great…’’ she told him chewing on her lower lip. If she was at least somewhat right about how he felt for Elena e was most likely feeling terrible right now after what he had done to her. that was of course if Stefan was really truly back, if he was still whatever he had been when this whole thing first went down well perhaps than things were actually somewhat different. But she wanted to believe that the Stefan that Elena had first fell in love with was now fully back.


‘’what do you mean more concern about me?’’ she asked him. Bonnie was pretty sure he was just trying to change the subject but curiosity was getting the best of her right now. Was he really concern about her or was he more concern about the vision of him she now had of him, perhaps he was just concern about the way she was now going to see him. This would actually make a bit more sense to her. because right now she could not believe that Stefan would ever be part of the good crowd again. ‘’well yeah I guess you are right there is really nothing you could say that would make all of this better or different, you made a choice Stefan.’’ She told him trying her best to actually stay calm.

Bonnie leaned on the tree in front of him and actually had a half smile. ‘’unfortunately no. I mean I`m know there is spells that could work but really I think the only way is to deal with whatever is really going on…’’



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[Stefan Demetrio Salvatore]

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He was right, it wasn't bad taste in music, but it still wasn't Bon Jovi. Stefan was never a huge fan of Michael Jackson, but he didn't dislike him, so he just nodded at her reply. Still even with the current light heart'ed conversation, the tension in the air was still quite noticeable for both of them. Stefan knew better then anyone how she felt about vampires in general let alone the one who hurt and probably almost killed her best friend Elena. And though it wasn't entirely Stefan's fault that Caroline turned into one, he still blamed himself for it happening in the first place.

"Well, I don't feel good most of the time." Stefan told her with a soft smile, she was right and Bonnie was always in tune with the feelings and emotions around her. Maybe it was because she was a witch and was just good at that kind of stuff. Stefan felt like he should claw his brains out of his head to get rid of the memories of what he did, the guilt, the pain, the sadness. And those were the good days, the days like today when he felt ok, at least in the current moment. The bad days he didn't even feel like getting out of the Boarding house and doing anything.

"About scaring you or hurting you or however you feel." Stefan told her when she asked why he was concerned about her. He guessed it was in his nature to care about people and how they felt, even if they didn't want to see him or know him right now. She must of felt something, at least anger at him over everything that happened and Stefan felt bad about it. It was basically the conversation he had with Caroline after she turned into a vampire.

"Well, as a human, I cared deeply for people and how they felt. If they were hurting, I felt their pain. I felt guilty if I was the one that caused it. And as a vampire, all of that got... magnified."

So he always felt that way about people, and he had to have caused Bonnie some pain, whatever it was, he couldn't guess, sadness, anger, fear, a mix of them, grief. So he felt bad about it, maybe he deserved it, to feel bad, but he just wanted her to know that. "I'm sorry." He simply said, even though he knew deep down that, that wouldn't even begin to cover it. But at least Bonnie now knew that he felt that way, maybe she would tell him that he didn't have to feel that way about her, but he did. Bonnie was one of Elena's best friends, but more then that, Stefan wanted to be her friend.

Before, maybe it was possible if not a bit of a pipe dream. Now, it was almost completely impossible, and that made Stefan sad. She was right, he did made his choice, he chose to save his brother and not let him die. Maybe Bonnie couldn't understand like Elena did cause she didn't have a sibling, maybe she could but that was beside the point. Stefan didn't know yet if it was the right or wrong move, it was to early to tell, but it was his only option at the time, and Stefan didn't know, even after everything that has happened, if he would ever do things differently.

Stefan and Damon may never get along, but to imagine a world where Damon is no more, that world is a place Stefan couldn't bare to live in, despite how they felt about each other, they were still brothers. "I understand." Stefan said to her, he just wished people were able to see his actions from his point of view. He couldn't help what happened after he saved Damon, but the things after saving Damon were a direct result of saving him. He nodded. "Well it was worth a shot." Stefan said mustering a smile at her explanation on not being able to use a spell.

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Bonnie had half a mind of simply walking away, she could easily tell Stefan she needed to get going, she didn’t have to tell him that she didn’t want to be around him. But something was pushing her to stay around. Most likely it had something to do with the fact that she knew this would be what Elena wanted. She could at least be civil for now to Stefan. Of course it was hard because of all the things he had done. Bonnie had to take a few deep breaths to calm herself down and told herself to give him a slight chance to explain himself. she knew that nothing he could say would make her forgive him but maybe it would help ease her into getting back into just being civil around him.



She could easily remember when Stefan had first showed up at school and they didn’t even know what he was yet, those had been the simpler days and maybe if he had been human things would have been a lot easier but that was not the case and things had just turned out to be far too complicated after that. Bonnie could not help but look up into his eyes when he said that he didn’t feel good most of the time. Part of her wanted to tell him that it was what he deserved but she managed to bite it back. Remember to be civil. She needed to do her best to be as civil as possible for the moment. Unless of course he gave her a reason not be civil.



“Stefan it’s kind of too late for that…” she told him a bit more harsly than she would have liked. But really she could not help it. What did he expect out of her? Of course she was hurt of course she was scared. He was apparently back to his oldself again but who knew how long it would take before he turned on them again, he was a vampire deep down and no matter how much he tried to act like a human he was not one anymore.



As he spoke again, Bonnie could not help but raise an eyebrow. “everything you feel is now like stronger than when you were a human?” she asked him. Well that would explain why he was so intense most of the time. “like when you love someone you love them more than anything but when you feel a bad emotion do you feel it even worst?” perhaps it was how the attack had started, he had been dealing with too much emotions and had completely lost it. It didn’t excuse it but it could explain how it had happen. Bonnie closed her eyes when he said he was sorry. Sorry was not going to be enough, sorry would never be enough for what he had done. “I know.” She said simply because she could not tell him she forgave him because that would be a lie.



The whole situation was not really something that Bonnie could understand with ease. That was the trouble. And maybe it had something to do with the fact that she didn’t have a brother or a sister. But there was also the fact that she could not understand how Stefan could simply act as if Damon needed to saved, deserved to be saved. Because as far as she was concern, Damon didn’t deserve these things. While there were vampires she could tolerate she didn’t think Damon would ever fall into that category.


“yeah I mean I could find one but really it would not be fair. There are things we all need to learn to live with and it’s not fair to just want them to go away and not work on them.” She said more softly this time. “But I’m guessing you already knew that, I mean you have been around for quite some time now.” She added quickly. “How is Elena?”



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[Stefan Demetrio Salvatore]

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"I wouldn't blame you at all if you just walked away." Stefan said, maybe he was a mind reader, or maybe he was just good at reading faces, but he could tell that she didn't want to be around him right now. "Thanks for trying at least, that is what I am doing as well." Stefan said to her, maybe Bonnie didn't trust him and maybe she never would again, but at least they were both trying for Elena's sake. Really, Stefan wanted to mend this bridge more then he could ever express with words. She was important to Elena, and that made her important to Stefan.

Stefan would probably do almost anything to save Bonnie, just because of the simple fact that it for devastate Elena to loose someone else in her life. Not that it meant that is the only reason Stefan would save her if she ever needed his help, he would do it cause he cared and he still liked her, even if she hated his guts. That is just how Stefan was, caring about people and their feelings. So the fact that Bonnie was at least trying as well then that meant she had a similar view of Stefan. Stefan was important to Elena, so by extension, he was important to her.

Maybe not as a friend, but she knew what Elena would go through if she lost Stefan, and she probably saw how Elena was when Stefan was gone and she didn't want to see her friend like that again. Maybe it wasn't the best relationship Bonnie and Stefan could have, but it was a start, and that's all Stefan wanted really, was a chance to make things right. She was right, it was to late to feel sorry about stuff. Stefan nodded. "I understand." He simply said, he did, he got it better then anyone, and he didn't blame her for being upset with him.

"Well, yeah. Though loving Elena would be the same no matter who I was." Stefan told her with a small grin. "I just, when something bad happens, rather its cause of me or not, I feel really bad for the person and want to help them, like with Caroline." Stefan said, he wasn't sure if Caroline told Bonnie all that happened between them or not, but they were girls, and figuring them to talk about such things wouldn't be to far of a stretch. "Watching Caroline struggle upset me so much, I had to help her. She is one of my best friends now." Stefan told her.

"It would be the same for you, if you ever got hurt or sick and I could do something to help, then I would try to, even if you don't want me to." Stefan added with a soft smile. "As for the bad feelings, if I hate or dislike someone, it isn't magnified by how I feel, it is magnified by their actions. Like Klaus hurting Elena and Tyler and others. That's why I usually hate myself for a long time after... something like this happens. Cause of what I did, the guilt, its just...." Stefan said looking down, maybe she didn't care, but he was at least getting it off his chest, so it helped.

Stefan didn't expect her to care about all of this, but he just wanted her to know the truth, Caroline knew, Elena knew, Lexi knew. Stefan of course knew all of that stuff about the spell. He was partially joking when he said it, but he guessed it fell flat as Bonnie only talk about it like a serious topic. Stefan wouldn't even want to use the potion if she offered, taking the easy way out wasn't his style, and he would have to get over it like he did the last few times. "I would be a coward if I took it anyways." Stefan told her finally.

She then asked how Elena was. "She is good, I just think she is happy to have her boyfriend back." Stefan told Bonnie not bothering to hide the smile on his face. "We are working on things right now." He added looking at her. "Bonnie..." Stefan began frowning at her. "if you never forgive me, that's fine, I just want you to know that, like Caroline, Elena, Matt, even Jeremy, I am there for you, and rather you want my help or not, if you ever need it, I will give it to you. If someday I can make up for everything, then great, if not then at least I tried." Stefan told her truthfully.

"I just need you to give me a chance. That's all." He added. The awkward conversation has really run its course. Though Bonnie didn't give him her answer on a chance, they at least got everything in the open. Stefan said goodbye to her and the two parted ways.

Tags: Bonnie Bennett, Open
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