::Maria:: Say All That You Have To Say

[Elizabeth 'Liz' Claudia Parker]

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She smiled sadly and nodded, knowing exactly where Maria was going with this. "You know we would have never made it through our crazy pre-teen years without Alex?" She asked rhetorically, knowing that the blonde would agree with her. "God I remember how many times we would both be in tears and would run over there and this little kid who I think we both weighed more than him back then would wrap us into his arms and let us cry out all our frustrations to him. His parents were like our parents...to this day I still regret not being there more for them after he died. I just couldn't... I was so consumed by finding out what happened to him that by the time I knew I just couldn't get over the guilt to check in on them." She whispered before wiping a stray ear and smiling.

“I remember one night, you were spending the night and my mom and I had gotten into a fight. I came in my room crying and you called Alex. He showed up and held the both of us since you never could handle someone else crying without crying yourself. We fell asleep and woke up to my dad yelling about boys in my bed. I promise you he grilled Alex for two hours straight trying to figure out if Alex was my boyfriend or not.” She told her, remembering with a giggle the look on their best friend’s face when he walked back in. “Apparently he even asked Alex if he knew what size bra I wore and when Alex said yes he had to convince him that it was because you and I had dragged him shopping so many times that it was just something he knew.” She giggled out.

Hearing about the aqua bra made her crack up laughing even harder. “Oh god I do remember that. I actually saw one in a store the other day and I swear the manager thought I was nuts because I just kept laughing. Of course it didn’t help when I told her that she should put a sign up that says ‘Do not wear in cold parts of the world’. Apparently she didn’t find it as amusing as I did.” She smirked.

Sobering quickly she nodded. “I sometimes can’t help myself though…especially recently with everything with Zan. Every time I look at him I see Max and Tess rolled into one and it kills me because I love this kid and he’s just as kind as Max was…but there’s a part of me that wishes that Tess wouldn’t have shown up in Roswell. So how can I say that I love him when a part of me wishes he would have never been born? Because that’s what it would mean if Tess wouldn’t have come to Roswell.” She answered, having not spoken her fears or guilt with anyone before.

Word Count:: 502
Tag:: Maria DeLuca
Outfit:: Click here for Liz’s outfit!
Note:: Me too!!

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[Maria Lucy Deluca]

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Maria knew that Liz was not expecting an answer to that question. They would not have made it without Alex. Just like he would not have made it without them. The three of them had always been together, even after the whole thing with the aliens it had been the three of them still. They had been different than Max, Michael and Isabel. Alex had been their rock always there to listen to them. “God I miss him.” Maria said. she didn’t like to think about this stuff, she didn’t like to acknowledge these things, but they were a part of who they were, there was nothing they could do to change it. She wanted to remember the good moments with Alex and try her best not to focus on what had happen after.



Maria looked up at Liz at the mention of Alex’s parents. “I kept in touch with them.” She admitted. Maria reached over to Liz and put her hand over her friend’s. “They understood why it was hard for you to reach out to them. They didn’t understood the reasons the way I did because they don’t know the things we do, but they never hated you for it…” she told Liz. “they are doing okay all things considered…” Maria added. “I haven’t heard from them in over a year but last time we did speak they were okay.” Against her own better judgement, Maria had went back to Roswell for a few hours over a year ago, to see her mother and she had stopped by Alex’s old house. She knew it had been wrong of her to go back but she had to.


Closing her eyes for a moment, Maria remembered that night. “Yeah I remember.” She said opening her eyes. “I can’t believe Alex didn’t think of lying when your father asked him that…” Maria couldn’t help but laugh. But it was just like Alex, speak the truth no matter what. “You should have brought it.” Maria giggled when thinking about the aqua bra. “Seriously it was not the best idea I had ever had.” The blonde woman said as she shook her head remembering.



It was strange how fast their conversation could change, from sad, to funny, to angry and now this. The bomb had been dropped and if Maria knew her friend the way she was sure she did, saying this was killing her inside. “I think I understand what you mean.” She said softly. “I mean I can’t understand it completely because well I have never been in that situation but still. “it’s a conflicting situation but perhaps we can try and see the best in it. I mean yes Tess did some awful things but I mean there is Zan and I know how you feel about that kid, maybe trying to focus on the positive stuff might help…” she said. it was not something maria would have been able to think when they were younger but she had grew up, mature and was not trying to see the positive in the little things.

tag: Liz
words:some and more
outfit:Clothes!notes: I love their frienship so much

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[Elizabeth 'Liz' Claudia Parker]

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Hearing that Maria had kept in touch with Alex’s parents made her feel even more guilty. She didn’t blame the blonde for keeping in touch with them, or her mother if she had, since she had been the one who didn’t have to go with them. “Maria, you could have gone back to Roswell anytime you wanted. We all told you that before we left. You were safe, even if the FBI had gotten a hold of you, one swab of your mouth and your blood cells would have come back clean. They would have threatened you not to breathe a word of it to anyone and then they would have let you go. So why stay on the run?” She asked her, not understanding.

Well, no, that wasn’t exactly true. She knew that when Maria agreed to leave Roswell it was because they were all under the impression that they would stay together…and that was how it had started out. Liz could remember the days leading up to the group splitting up as if it was yesterday. They had been gone not even three months and had already had several close calls. It had been two weeks since the last one, which was by far the largest gap in between that they had. The group thought they were in the clear and she and Max had decided to finally take the step to get married. They knew it was risky since they both wanted to use their real names to tie themselves to one another, but they felt as if it was worth the risk.

Not even to the small chapel that they had found when the van’s back window was blown out. Luckily for them Max, Michael and Isabel were able to hold them off long enough for them to get away. (Max’s shield, Michael’s blast and Isabel’s ability to move things with her mind). Unfortunately when they were far enough away they realized that by staying together they were making it too easy for the FBI and the special unit to find them…so they made the decision. Originally they were planning to go into pairs. Maria and Michael, Isabel and Kyle and she and Max. Unfortunately after talking about it they realized that this wouldn’t do much good since anyone who had watched them would know that none of them relished the thought of being alone, no matter which pairing. So it was decided that they split up and meet up when it was safe.
Unfortunately it hadn’t yet become safe.

Breaking out of her thoughts she sighed. “I know, but it still hurts. I can’t be glad of one person’s conception because of another person’s death. I wish we could have both…and if I had the choice as bad as it makes me sound, I don’t know who I would pick. Well…maybe I do…but either way it makes me a horrible person. All I know is that I miss Alex sometimes more than I can say…he wasn’t supposed to die like that…and to this day I know that I am to blame.”

Word Count:: 564
Tag:: Maria DeLuca
Outfit:: Click here for Liz’s outfit!
Note:: I do too. I would just like to say that the IRS is making me mad. I have been sitting on hold with them for the last hour and 36 minutes! Sorry, felt like ranting.

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[Maria Lucy Deluca]

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MariMaria had to think of a way to explain what she felt. While it was the rest of them who had been in danger and Maria being human, had been safe. There still were things she was worried about. The blonde woman closed her eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. “I was scared that if I went back they would find me and while I know I’m as clean as one can be when it comes to my blood cells but they also know that I know all of you…I…” Maria looked up at Liz for a moment before looking down at her hands. Was she really about to say this?


As she spoke again, Maria made sure to look away from her friend. She was unsure how this would actually sound once she actually started to speak the words. “I was afraid that they would see me and bring me to the same white room they first brought Max, I was afraid that they would torture me so they could find you.” While she was only a human she had ties to aliens and she knew that in the grand scheme of things it could mean a lot, it could easily mean that she would be the easiest target for the FBI and then what? What would stop these people to take her? Nothing. “I was afraid that I would not be able to keep my mouth shut…that I would say something.” She spoke quietly.


The blonde girl was ashamed for thinking such a thing. she wanted to be able to protect the people she cared about but she was unsure if she would have been strong enough to make it. And it killed her. She didn’t want to be the reason why her friends would be killed or taken away. Finally she looked up at Liz wondering how her friend would feel about the sudden revelation as to why Maria had stayed in hiding like the rest of them when it would have been easy for her to just go back home to her family. Well at least part of her family. She would have still have her mother but it was not her whole family. The rest of the them who were still out there were also her family. They all were part of the people she loved so deeply. She wanted to be able to say that she would do anything to protect them but the more she thought about it, the less she though it was possible.


Maria shook her head. “You are not a horrible person and don’t you ever say that you are to blame for Alex’s death.” She told her, her voice slightly cracking as she spoke. “I miss Alex so much but don’t you ever blame yourself for his death.” Maria took her best friend’s hand into her own. “You are not to blame for this. I know that…” maria was fully aware of how deep the guilt her best friend carried ran. She wished she could take the burden away from her for a moment.


tag: Liz
words:some and more
outfit:Clothes!notes: I love their frienship so much

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[Elizabeth 'Liz' Claudia Parker]

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She looked down for a moment, wiping a leaf off of her shirt that had floated there in the breeze, which didn't surprise her since the wind had picked up a bit. Not enough to bother her but enough to make leaves and such fly through the air. She wished in that moment that she was back in a pair of jeans and a tshirt like she had tended to wear in high school. She missed the way that she could be casual at all times rather than having to dress up most days like she did now. Not that she didn’t like dressing up but after doing it every day it got a bit excessive.

She remembered at one time she could throw on a pair of jeans, a pair of tennis shoes and some sort of long sleeve shirt, run a brush through her straight brown hair and be off to school in a matter of minutes. Unfortunately now that she was a professional she had to take a lot longer in the morning. Donning makeup, curling her hair, and like today, sliding on a pair of black business like trousers, a business casual like shirt and a pair of heels. She loved the way she stood in heels but after standing in them for eight hours a day, a lot of times more, she definitely missed the day of tennis shoes and flip flops.

Hell some days she even missed her Crashdown uniform, though she’d never utter that particular secret to another soul, living or otherwise.

Maria’s fears broke through her thoughts and she grabbed the young woman’s hand. “I don’t think you would have. Besides, you didn’t know where we were. Those FBI guys, they have ways of making sure that your telling the truth. They would have known fairly quickly that you didn’t know where we were. And if you would have told, none of us would have blamed you. I know at least that I wouldn’t…and I doubt Michael or Max would either. Kyle would be all ‘Buddha’ about it and Isabel…well god knows with her. I never really knew her until right before we all left but I doubt she would have blamed you either.” She told her best friend quietly. “But I am glad that you didn’t have to take that risk…I wouldn’t ever want you to put yourself in danger for me.” She told her, though she knew that it wasn’t just for her, she still felt responsible.

She shook her head, her brown curls moving side to side as she did, though the wind helped in that department. “Maria, in future Max’s time…he was still alive. That does make me to blame. And nothing anyone can say will ever take that blame away from me.”

Word Count:: 507
Tag:: Maria DeLuca
Outfit:: Click here for Liz’s outfit!
Note:: Sorry this took me a couple of days. Work = Me being a bit busy recently. Lol. <3 <3 <3. Btw I think we lost our Max again. -.-

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[Maria Lucy Deluca]

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Maria tighten her jacket around her body as the wind picked up, she was not really cold but the wind was not warm so she didn’t want to end up being cold and having to deal. It was nice to finally be with Liz again, to find time to be with her best friend. She didn’t want to leave not yet at least. For now she wanted to be reminded that life while it could never be simple could be pleasant having Liz around her reminded her of such moments. It had been far too long since Maria had been able to open up to someone she fully trusted she needed this.


Perhaps it was why they were going through so many subject all at once. Both women didn’t have the chance to talk about whatever it was they were feeling most of the time and now that they were together in the same place, it was finally happening. She couldn’t help but notice the change in her friend. Liz looked older still pretty but older, maybe it was only Maria who could see it but Liz looked like someone who life had ran over a few times. A small smile appeared on her lips as she remembered the time when they were both young and experiencing with looks, Liz had grew up to be a wonderful young woman that was for sure.


For a moment, Maria was a bit startle as her friend grabbed her arm. She had not been expecting this. She didn`t really know what she had been expecting but it had not been this. But she should have known that Liz would have been supportive. It was not like Liz to judge someone for something like this. Maria looked up at Liz. ‘’Still even if you all would have understood, I could have never lived with myself. You are all the most important people in my life, I could not have dealt with hurting either one of you…putting any of your in danger.’’ She could not protect them but the least she could do was to not cause them harm. The jealousy she had felt about not fully being one of them was mostly gone and even if there was still a part of it that was still there this was not what it was about. “I know you would not have wanted me to get into any danger but still if it was to happen I want to be able to protect you. All of you…”

“that was one vision. So many things could have change after that. This was not your fault. You know that Alex would never have wanted you to feel this way…” Maria told her friend softly even if she knew it was no use. "There are things we can never change in life..."


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[Elizabeth 'Liz' Claudia Parker]

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She wanted to comment on Maria’s statement but the serenity around them was broken by the shrieking of her cell phone at the same time her iPad (that she had forgotten she had in her bag) emitted a loud chirp and vibrated. She furrowed her brow for a minute, opening her bag to dig for her phone. She hadn’t remembered taking it off silent when she left the school but apparently she had. Finally finding it (at the bottom of course as it seemed everything was when you really needed it) she pulled it out with a triumphant murmur in her voice.

She quickly unlocked her phone and groaned when she saw that it was an e-mail from her boss saying that one of her students had gotten into a fight after school and she was requested at a meeting between the parents and the principal of the school. Normally it wouldn’t involve the teacher but Mystic Falls High School had started this new policy that whoever the student’s homeroom advisor was should be notified and ‘encouraged’ (i.e. Forced) to participate in any actions that had to do with disciplining the student. This was fine for the most part but it meant that she had to return to work in order to deal with it.

Sliding her phone into her purse she quickly pulled out her iPad only to note that it was the same e-mail that she had received on her phone. As much as she loved having the tablet that she could take with her anywhere she did tend to get annoyed when she got the same e-mails on both phone and tablet. She made a mental note to unlink her e-mail account on the tablet before also putting that way and turning apologetically to Maria. “That was my boss.” She told her, giving no lead up since it really wasn’t necessary. “Apparently one of my homeroom students got into a fight and he thinks it would be good experience to allow me to speak to the parents as well.” She told her with a roll of her dark eyes, standing up and offering her a hand before linking arms with the blonde haired woman.

“Can we meet up again for dinner this week? I have missed you and I hate that we have to hide out like this. It’s ridiculous. You are my best friend and yet I feel as if we are having some sordid affair by hiding in the damn woods just to talk.” She told her, her eyes taking on a fierce glint. “I have some calls to make but I’m starting to get a plan on how we are going to settle this.” She told her, surprised that they had already made it back to the main road. “I gotta go, call me later.” She told her before leaning in and pecking her cheek and heading towards her car.

She had lost five years of her life…she would be damned if she lost anymore time.

Word Count:: 518
Tag:: Maria DeLuca
Outfit:: Click here for Liz’s outfit!
Note:: THE END! <3

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