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Castiel



"What's left? What's right?"
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[/color] He pauses, furrowing his eyebrows in deep thought. His hands together, fingers intertwined as most did when 'praying'. "What if I am the one who's wrong?" He questions again. Over and over, he asks the same question everyday. And not once had he been given an answer. "I... I try to do what I think is right. But how will I know?"

Those near would only see a man looking up to the sky for answers that wouldn't come. Speaking to one's self probably didn't sit well with many.

He sighs and bows his head back down a bit. Talking of these things are makes them more real and the feeling of dread ebbs its way back into his grace, something he tried to avoid when sitting in quiet places.

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean was out taking a drive on a nice day in his 67 Chevy Impala, it was a beautiful 78 degrees out one of the nicest days he has seen here in Mystic Falls in a long time. The sun was shining, the birds were singing, and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. It really was a great day to just cruse in the Impala. Dean couldn’t be more happier right now then he was in this moment, he was on his way to meet his brother Sam for lunch and to talk about a case they were working on. So far they hadn’t figured out the case but they were working on it, it was only time that Winchester brothers would crack the case.

They were good like that, and now that Sam had his soul back they were unstoppable. Nothing could stand in there way, nothing was going to break there team up this time. Because if they did they would have one mean ass Dean Winchester on there hands, and no one wants that. Dean the cranked up that radio when Styx’s Mr. Roboto came on. “Oh man I love this song!” Dean said to himself. Dean was driving along singing it at the top of his lungs not even caring what people might think. He drove threw the park taking a short cut, it was faster to get to were Sam was this way.

But then as Dean was driving threw the park he noticed someone, Dean stopped the Impala to get a better look at who it was. “What the hell? What is that sun of a bitch doing here?” Dean said getting out of the Impala and making his way over there. It was Castiel sitting in the park on a bench like no big deal, last Dean checked he was busy with a war in heaven. And right now Castiel didn’t look busy, he looked like nothing was going on. “Can I asked what the hell you are doing out here Cass? Aren't you suppose to be fighting off in Heaven somewhere"Dean asked waiting to see what he had to say.

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Castiel



"Help me help you."
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[/color] There was no defensiveness in his tone, he was merely curious. Each time the Winchesters called, he dropped everything to rush to their side. Was it so strange to see him taking a few moments to himself?

“I wanted a moment to think. To pray.” He added as an afterthought, his brows furrowed in that usual look of concentration again. Praying was a rather human thing to do but it was a sign of faith. Something he feared of losing. “But yes, you’re right. I should be up there fighting.” He stated with the smallest hint of a sigh and unease in his tone, his eyes looking up to the sky before returning to Dean’s face.

“Was there something that you required of me?” Was questioning his presence in a small park all that he wanted? Though normally the boys would pray or call out to him if they needed him, maybe they were stuck on their hunt and Dean just happened to spot him at the right time. A strange coincidence. But when is that ever really the case?

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Is there a reason he cant be! Is that really all he had to say, he should have been around a lot more when Dean was trying to help Sam soul and he wasn’t. He was to busy off trying to keep heaven safe, even though it never will be. There will always be some dumb raging war going on up there no matter what. Even when they did get Sam soul back after so long he was still to busy he came said hey and left, he was off doing whatever needed to be in Heaven. But right now it really didn’t seem like he was off in heaven, it seemed like she was chilling in the park.

Dean then sat down next to the Angel and said, “Yeah there is a reason you cant be, you said you were to busy in heaven to do anything else. But here you just sitting in the park like no big deal, what are watching the pigeons or something because I know you aren’t going to interest anyone else.” Dean knew he was being a dick but really could anyone blame him, Castiel was like his best friend who hasn’t been there for him when he has needed him most. Realistically anyone would be pissed off about it if it was there friend who did it too them, and Dean has always been there for Castiel.

Dean then felt like something was wrong with Castiel when he said he was prying, so always Dean was giving in feeling like an ass. “Why are you prying man what’s up are you ok?” Dean asked worried for his friend. “And no man me and Sam are doing ok right now, so far anyway. We just really miss having you around, you always do good helping us on jobs. We make a great team you know that!”


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Castiel



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[/color] Were the words he had to offer Dean for not being around when he needed him. He understood why Dean was annoyed with him sitting on the park now. And he is right. “I should have assisted in bringing Sam’s soul back. As always your problems do come first.” And this was true. One of the only reasons he even started this war was so that Dean and Sam wouldn’t lose what they had fought so hard for. Dean and Sam were his reasons for most, if not all, his actions since he had met the two.

Sapphire blue eyes only stared at the older Winchester who sat down beside him like an old friend would. This thought was comforting to the angel. But the reasons for his praying were something he didn’t want to burden his charge with. “Yes. I’m fine.” He lied though his face was as stone masked as ever to the true emotion. “It is not of import as to why I’m praying. It is a sign of faith, Dean. I’ve told you this before.” It was one of the things he feared losing, but not many knew this. His gaze shifted from the young man’s face to the ground then straight ahead of him. He paused. “It’s good to hear that you and Sam are doing ok. Truly.” Genuinely, he was glad that Dean and Sam could remain together and hunt as they always have been before the angels and the apocalypse had gotten involved.

The smallest hint of a smile twitched at the corners of his lips. “There is nothing I wish for more than to be here with you, Dean.” But he knew that there was still much to do. “Unfortunately I can’t abandon my home. Heaven is still in chaos…” While the problems of angels probably didn’t warrant much of Dean’s concern or attention, it was an all too real problem for Castiel.

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean was a bit confused now because the last he checked Castiel only cared about heaven, he could care less about getting back Sam soul back when they needed him most. But now he seemed as though he felt guilty for not being there, so now Dean felt bad for being such a dick to him. Castiel really couldn’t help it if he had to help Heaven it was his job, he couldn’t help being to busy to help them. Castilel was just trying to keep the world safe and here. Dean was just being selfish as always thinking he is the only one at the time that mattered. But he couldn’t help it he gets that way sometimes when it comes to his brother. “No Cass you were busy and heaven did need you man, I’m sorry for being such a dick.” Dean said with a smile.

Dean didn’t know what it was but something was up with Castiel, yes he did pray as a sign faith but Castiel acted as though there was more. Dean as been friends with Cass long enough to know something was up, but Dean was going to let it fly for now he owed him that. “Yeah I’m happy Sam is back man, I didn’t think I was ever going to get the old Sammy back. It really is nice to have my hunting buddy and brother back. You know it be nice if I had my feathery partner back as well” Dean said hinting to Castiel, trying to be funny.

But Dean understood that Casteil was a busy angel after all, there were more important things he was needed for right now. “Yeah I know you rather be hanging with Sam and Me, but I know that its crazy up there and they really need you. So don’t worry man I understand and I’m not mad at you for it. So what is the news on heaven anyway?” Dean asked.

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Castiel



"I am having doubts once again.
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[/color] Some friend he was. Right now he couldn’t afford to lose the few friends he had. And losing Dean and Sam was an unbearable thought to think on. Though he had good reason, the war had gotten too much for his lieutenant to handle.

“You deserved some happiness. And Sam is one of the few that allow you to feel such things.” He furrowed his brows at the “feathery partner” portion of his sentense, Dean always found such strange names to refer to him. He had no feathers, his wings were not perceivable to the older Winchester’s dull senses. Therefore, there was no logical reasoning to him referring to him using the word ‘feathery’ in the name. Of course, Castiel soon understood that he was only ‘joking around’ and nodded his head slightly. “Again, I would love nothing more than to stay here.” He restated, a small sigh accompanying his words.

The angel didn’t want to drag Dean into the messy thoughts and troubles he had, he would rather spare him from having to worry about anything other than whatever problems laid around here. But he knew that the hunter wouldn’t just let it go. If there were few friends in Castiel’s life, there were even fewer he would tell his troubles to. Dean had been one of the first he expressed his doubts to. Why not give in to the lure of his need for a friend now? “I am having doubts again.” He paused, looking away from Dean to stare up at the sky. Everything was falling apart now and Castiel desperately tried to keep it together. Heaven was tearing itself up at the seams and he didn’t know how much longer it would last before the chaos spread further. “Doubts that I will win this war against Raphael.” He slowly confessed.

And then he thought on a rather peculiar little thought. “I have sensed my brother Gabriel nearby in recent days.” It had been bothering him for some time actually. “I fear that he may be working with Raphael.” This was a concerning issue for Castiel. Going against one archangel was a barely feasible feat and the odds were not in his favor at all. Having to deal with another, to top it off it was Gabriel, would be entirely too much to go against from a lowly angel such as himself even when many believed him to be favored by God. He would not stand a chance fighting with the two should they be on the same side. “I…” He looked down to his hands. “If Gabriel and Raphael are on the same side then I fear that this war is for nothing.” He tells Dean with a simple finality. “But I can’t give up. For you and Sam. For myself, I won’t give up.” They’ve all endured so much for Castiel to simply give in.

Castiel looks to Dean. “… I have never asked anything of you.” He begins, the favor on the tip of his tongue but it falls dead before it passes through his lips. “And I won’t for as long as I can.” He may have done so much for the Winchesters, but to ask for their help now… it seems like it would be asking too much.

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean was so happy to hear what Castiel saying, showing him that he has been caring all these months. It made Dean feel a lot better about him not being there with Sam and Him, Castiel cant helped it if he was needed in heaven all theses months. He was an Angel after all and it was kind his job, just like having to sleep in motel and after motel hunting every night. Eating the Same crappy fast food, always getting blood on you from some job. But the job does have a great out come in keeping people safe, and Dean loves getting to do that. “Thanks Cass but I understand all the stress being needed up there in heaven, having to deal with all those douche bag Angels.” Said Dean.

Dean was really worried about Castiel he really seemed to have something on his mind, he was really having doubts Dean wished there was something he could do. “Don’t let Raphael get to you he is not going to win this war, because Cass I’m going to help you make sure that he don’t. I want that Ass hat dead juts as much if not more then you do.” Said Dean. Dean hated Raphael for everything he had done, the last few months he has really pissed Dean off. He cant wait for the day the sun of bitch is Dean, hell Dean is going to have a party when he is.

Castiel then had said something about Gabriel working with Raphael, another reason Dean hated him so much. It sounded as though he was worried they were working together, but Dean didn’t think that was the case he would do something like that. Gabriel was way to smart to do something that dumb. “Cass I don’t think that Gabe would do something like that man, trust me he has something up is sleeve I just know it. And trust me man this isn’t all for nothing.” Said Dean giving Castile a smile.

Castiel then seemed like he had something to ask of Dean, he just didn’t know what it was yet. But whatever it was Dean wanted to help Cass. “What is it Cass you sound like you need help with something? Whatever it is man Sam and Me will be right here backing you up, whatever you need man just ask.” Said Dean

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Castiel



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[/color] He chided him wearily. While a number of them would never welcome Castiel back with open arms, he still loved his brethren.

“It is difficult not to.” He confessed. With the angelic forces that were once a great comfort at his heels, Castiel found himself always on edge with his guard constantly up. It was not unexpected that he was weary of any and all of Raphael’s movement. Particularly ones that centered near Earth. “Dean, I’m on a losing side to this. And I am a bit doubtful in your abilities to help with an archangel.” Well, no. That wasn’t entirely true. Dean had proved himself more than capable of taking on any angel with the right people at his side. However, Castiel wasn’t all that comfortable with Dean becoming too overtly involved in this war. As Uriel had so easily guessed and pointed out, Castiel did have a weakness. And that weakness was his charges, Dean in particular. One slip-up could prove fatal to him and the Winchesters.

Quietly, he mulled over Dean’s thought. Yes, Gabriel was much too bright to get caught on any side, let alone Raphael’s. “Gabriel wants everything to end. He was one who fled us, the angels.” He had been one of few that abandoned their duties to their Father. “However, he does not have any soft spot for humans and could not care less what happened to humanity.” Gabriel was the one that wanted everything to end, for all the fighting to stop. He was long past caring with side ended as long as it did. “For one like him… helping the side that was closer to victory would be in his favor.” He reasoned quietly. Then looked into Dean’s eyes, staring as always. This time searching for any doubt Dean may have had in Gabriel and finding none. “… I will trust in your judgment. But that does not mean I will be forgiving should he prove to be a threat.”

A small shake of his head, Castiel dismissed Dean’s offer. “No.” Again, he would not drag his charge into his troubles. But he didn’t want Dean pressing the issue as he typically tried to do before Castiel would fly off. “Should I think of something… I will call.” The angel always, without fail, came when the Winchesters call for him. He hopes that they will one day do the same for him.

“Should you not be returning to Sam?” He hadn’t realized but some time had passed since Dean sat down with him. Of all people, Castiel knew how much Dean would rather be at Sam’s side than listening to the troubles of one angel.

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean did understand that they were his family after all even thought they all were a bunch of dicks, but even Dean knows that doesn’t mean that you give up on family. If that was the case Dean would have given up on Sam a long time ago, he was a dick the whole time he didn’t have a soul. But Dean still helped and always stood by his brother no matter what, even if he was a complete dick. “Yeah Cass I understand you have to stick by family, even if you don’t like and they piss you off all to hell. You always be there for family, I’m always there for Sam no matter what. Even if he hated me, didn’t care or was just a straight dick, like how he was with no soul. I’m still there for him.” Said Dean.

Dean knew that he did sound crazy talking on archangel, but Dean had taken on much worse. He took a fight with Lucifer himself, which was probably the dumbest thing that he had ever done. But to get threw to Sam it was something he just had to do. “Cass I can handle that ass hole, you know that I have fought a lot worse. With everything he has done to my friends I have to give him a piece of my mind. “ Dean said with a pissed off tone in his voice.

It seemed as though Castiel didn’t trust Gabriel one bit, but Dean couldn’t blame him in the past they have had bad luck in the wrong trusting people. But Dean didn’t really think he had to worry, yes Gabe had hated humans but at the same time he did have understanding with some. Like with Dean they really have made up for past times, its not like it use to be they are a team now. “Well Cass don’t worry I have trust in him man, while you were gone he had done a great job in helping me when I didn’t have Sam there. And on top of that he is a great drinking buddy, man did we have fun we must all get drunk sometime.” Dean Said laughing. Dean then though of someone else who would have to come party with them, someone that Castile was yet to meet. “Oh you will have to meet Maddie she is awesome, you might have heard of her Cass she is a prophet after all.”

Castiel then had said something about getting back to Sam, Dean then slapped himself on the head. “Oh shit I forgot all about Sam, before I stopped here to talk to you I was on my way to meet up with him. Im sure he is fine but man I feel like an ass big time.” Said Dean.


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[/color] He assured the hunter, he had been there when Dean faced both Lucifer and Michael. ... While it almost ended badly, their plan had succeeded. “That doesn’t mean I could carelessly put your life at stake against an archangel again.” Last time was nothing short of luck, careful planning, and God’s good grace. How else could they have been able to pull off ripping up the ending to what had been planned for so long? The apocalypse didn’t come to pass.

It wasn’t that Castiel didn’t trust his older brother Gabriel. It was just difficult in completely dropping his guard to anyone. More so with the angels. It was careful planning and watching to get the right angels on his side. But with Gabriel, he was unsure where he stood exactly in this war. Being the mischievous angel that he was, he would have fun in poking the sleeping bear that was Raphael’s wrath as well as shaking Castiel’s morale. But Dean had trust in Gabriel… that was good enough for Castiel, for now. "I'll have faith in your choice, Dean." Though he didn't sound at all convinced. If he should ever get the chance to talk with his elder brother, he wanted to know himself whether he was on his side.

He grimaced at the mention of him not being around again. It stung him with guilt more than it should have. Now he had another reason to give Gabriel a chance to at least explain himself. He had been there for Dean Winchester when he was not. Anyone who did that in his place deserved some of his patience and respect. Though he was a bit hesitant in accepting the offer to... imbibe in copious amounts of alcohol with Gabriel and Dean and so said nothing.

He tilted his head at the mention of a Maddie. If he was assuming correctly, Dean was probably referring to one of the prophets under Gabriel’s protection. All the names of prophets, past, present, and those to come had been seared into his mind long ago. “Madison Saxon.” He tried. Looking to Dean to be certain that it was her. It would be useful to befriend more prophets. But he felt that it was more Gabriel’s call if she should join the civil war between the angels or not.

The angel shook his head. “Sam will understand, Dean. He always does when you explain to him. I apologize for taking up your time.” His steady gaze flickered from the Impala then back at Dean. “If you would like I could take you to him this instant. Your car as well.” He raised his hand to touch Dean’s forehead with his pointer and middle fingers.

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean knew that Castiel was just worried about what could happen to him up against Raphael, he just wished that Castiel wouldn’t worry about him so much though. But it was better to have some care about Dean then not to, it really was nice to have his Angel pal back with him. Dean had missed these talks with Castiel. “ I know Cass, but some how we need to make sure that sun of bitch pays for all he has done.” Said Dean with a pissed off like tone.

It seemed like Castiel was going to take trust in Dean choice, but Dean was going to make sure he keeps his guard up just because that how Dean rolled. He always made sure he watched his back, plus this was the guy at one point that did kill him over a hundred times. So that’s kind of something you never really forget, even if Dean tried to. “Don’t worry Cass I will still keep a watch out on Gabe, I know that with everything that happen to us we cant trust anyone.” Said Dean.

Dean could tell By Castiel response that he had heard of Maddie before, which was good Dean wanted make sure she really was what she said she was. Dean has be fucked over by a prophet before even though he knew Maddie wouldn’t do that to him, but like Dean said always watching his back no matter what.

Castiel then had said something about getting him back to Sam, worried that he was taking up his time. Which he wasn’t this was Castiel after all and Dean really has missed having him around. “Don’t worry Cass you aren’t taken any of my time, but Yeah I should get back to Sammy. And don’t worry about it I will drive man, you know how I feel about teleporting places. Plus I don’t know if I trust that with my baby.” As always Dean was worried about his car, but really what else what new. “Ok man Well I’m off, please keep in touch with us Cass.” Said Dean as he walked to his car. Dean got into his Impala take off making his way back to Sam, he waved as he drove by Castiel.

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