Post by Elizabeth 'Liz' Claudia Parker on Oct 4, 2013 20:35:06 GMT -6
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- - - - - - - - - - -I'm Not Religious, but I've been to church. I know right from wrong, and I know it's wrong to benefit in any way from someone else's passing. But I won't deny that Tess' death has freed me. Like a dark shadow passed over the sun before the light came flooding back. It's a brand new day full of possibilities and hope. I haven't felt like that in a long, long time. It's different for Max, he lost more than his son. He lost a sense of direction to his life, a sense of purpose. He puts up a great front, but I know.
The trouble with making plans for the future, even when you can see the future, is that fate has a way of intervening, and upsetting the best laid plans of mice and men. -Robert Burns, 1785. That was on the SAT too.
But really, who knows what the future will bring? Ever since that day at the Crashdown, every day seems new, and yet every step feels like it could be my last. And when I am trembling in my heart, I don’t know if it’s excitement, fear, attraction, or revulsion, all of the above at the same time. What I do know is that my world might crumble at any second. Let’s face it, coming face to face with your own blood gushing from a gunshot wound, that’s traumatic enough. I barely remember that feeling, except for lying on the floor and tasting the aluminum in my mouth, what I assume can only be from the shock I slipped into. But then Max came over and somehow he made me look at him. That’s when I felt the jolt!
I can't tell you much more than that. It wouldn't be safe for you or for us. I can tell you that we are far away and that we are all trying to avoid the law and do good in the world.
Oh, and I guess I should tell you that Max and I will eventually tie the knot.
Give my love to Mom. Let her read this journal too. And give it to Maria's mom. And after that take it and burn it out in the desert by the ruins of the pod chamber where my fiance was born.
So that's the end. Our life in Roswell. What a long, strange trip it's been.
Will we ever go back? I don't know. Even I can't see everything in the future. All I know is that I'm Liz Parker and I am happy.
