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[Willow Danielle Rosenberg]

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It had been so long that she had seen what it looked like, seeing the big gapping hole that was once a place she liked to call home. The place that she grew up and went to school, it was even where she met many of important people that that where in her life. It was even where she found who she really truly was, finding out she had such a powerful magic that was deep inside of her. That was once so strong it took over her, but thanks to a best friend, he was able wake her up and bring her back to earth.

She stood over looking at the place that was once Sunnydale California, the place that they all grew to love. But even thought it was there home and seemed like a nice place it had a darkness hidden with in it. A hell mouth so strong that it pretty much helped crew a hole into this world, any kind of monster that could be down there was, including the first. But they took him on taking him down like he was nothing, which resulted in all this. But really if it wasn’t for Spike they never would have been able to stop him, using that Necklace and sacrificing himself. They will never forget him for that.

Willow took a seat on a Rock that was next to her, over looking the broken down yet gone Sunnydale wishing it wasn’t no more. It wasn’t so much that she really missed the town, but more of the things she had lost in it. One of them being Tara’s grave, she couldn’t visit the resting place of the love of her life anymore. Which really did upset the witch more then anything, she would bring Flowers to her grave whenever she gotten the chance to.

As she sat there she heard a sudden noise behind her, she was sacred to turn and see what she might find. It didn’t help that she was in fact near the old hell mouth. “Whoever is there would best be smart not to sneak up on me, if you knew what is good for you!” She called out while sitting there.”

Word Count-370
Tagged- Xander
Outfit- Click For Willow's Outfit
Note- YAY Willow and Xander time
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[Alexander Lavelle Harris]

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It was another boring day for Xander except this day was very different than other days today was the day where he could finally talk to his best friend Willow and he was about to but he saw her leaving. He was about to yell out for her name but decided he'd just sneak up on her when he had the chance. He was going to see Willow whether she liked it or not so Xander saw her get in the car and he followed in another car keeping a safe distance so she wasn't aware of it and once she got to her destination he stopped far away and just watched her then he started walking and wondered why she was looking in a hole then Xander remembered.

It was Sunnydale it was weird to think that this was the place they grew up in and now it was just...gone he actually missed it. So many memories were just going through his head and before he could think of anymore he heard Willow's voice. Xander stepped out of hiding. "Ya caught me Will red-handed," he said with a smile. "Still can catch me when you don't even know it's me!" He then walked beside the girl looking at the hole more. He couldn't help but actually tear up a little bit and could anyone blame him? He wasn't full on crying but his eyes were kind of watering well his one eye anyway. It wasn't only because of the past that he was sad it was the present everything was so different the group wasn't as close as they were when Sunnydale was still here.

"Sad, isn't it Will," he looked down the hole of where Anya's probably was probably decaying right now. "Welcome to Sunnydale population equals zero," he said more to himself than Willow. What had happened to the gang maybe it was just that they were grown up he honestly didn't know. "You couldn't have just come here to look at a hole and not that I'm complaining but why now?" He questioned the red-head he didn't get why would come here to see all the pain they went through and Xander would know considering he got his eye gauged out and his girlfriend but not girlfriend killed but then again Willow would know as well. Maybe it was a good thing that the place sunk. "Unless you come here often...do you Will?" He asked the girl curiously. She should have told him she was going he would have came with her right away he needed time to think about the past anyway and maybe today would be a good day to think about it.

Word count: 449
Tag: Willow
Outfit: Haven't made it yet
Notes: YAY I missed these two best friends talking actually it has been a while!

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[Willow Danielle Rosenberg]

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She had no idea what it could be stalking her, she didn’t think that tonight she would have to fight or take on something. But she thought wrong, but when Willow turned around she didn’t expect to find who she did. “Xander! What are you doing here?” She asked him. “How you know that I was coming to sunnydale? Wait did you follow me here?” It seemed as though Xander had followed her all the way to Sunnydale, which she could lie she was happy about. Better to spend the time here with a best friend then alone. “of course I can catch you, what kind of witch would I be if I couldn’t?” She said with a smile.

She could tell as Xander looked back behind her at Sunnydale, it was hard for him. Seeing the place that once was there home, all gone into nothing. All that lies there now was a big hole of nothing, with all there stuff, homes, and past along with it. But maybe it was good they left that part of them behind, life hasn’t been to bad with out it. Plus on top of that Buffy has trained and met some great Slayers since then, and Willow found her true power that night helping the Slayers find there true essence. And Willow would change that for the world if she could.

“It is sad how everything we ever knew is just gone, into nothing but this hole. I mean I still remember are first day of school, or when we met Buffy. It really is crazy” She told him. Xander had wanted to know if Willow cam up there often, which she didn’t but she has wanted to she just hasn’t had the time with everything. Having to save the world, find new Slayers and take on Glory, it just seemed like it was one thing after another.

“I came up here just to hang and I kind of missed it, it really upsets me sometimes that Sunnydale is no more. I mean so much has happened there, if it wasn’t for Sunnydale I may have never met you, Buffy or Giles for that matter.” Said Willow. “Or I never would have known Tara for that matter, which is kind of nothing reason I’m here. I mean I cant see her grave anymore, All I can do now really is over look sunnydale Which I guess is better then nothing you know.” She admitted to him.

Word Count-415
Tagged- Xander
Outfit- Click For Willow's Outfit
Note- YAY Willow and Xander time
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[Alexander Lavelle Harris]

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"I was bored so I followed," he said with shrug. He just wanted something fun to do and he hadn't talked to his friend in such a long time he needed this time with her. "Right amungo!" It was true she was basically the most powerful witch. "I bet you grew eyes at the back of your head with your wicca crafts and all." Xander had witnessed Willow's powers he was scratched up for trying to save her well not trying since he succeeded in saving her, he would always remember that day where he was the one to save his best friend no one else and that day Xander felt special.

That was probably the most intense day Xander had ever had in his entire life facing those death bringers and just saving the world it was a lot to take in and although he didn't gain any powers he did gain insight and experience of it all. From that point Xander did kind of want to just leave the supernatural world behind but he couldn't because that would mean forgetting about his friends which he could never do but still a normal life would have been okay if only none of this happened but if it hadn't then Xander wouldn't have met such amazing friends for one Buffy he would have never been her friend and quite frankly he just couldn't settle for that. Willow and Buffy were his friends and so was Giles so although he did wish the could leave it behind with all of them at his side he knew it wasn't possible.

Xander frowned when Willow started talking about school. "Never thought I'd say that I miss it and the people," he said with a slight sigh. He hated the people in high school but looking back on it it wasn't that bad and everyone had their issues. "I can't believe it's all gone I mean Will, we grew up here dated in kindergarten," he said jokingly. "I'm not sure if I should be happy that it's gone or sad in a way it is apart of us in this town we figured out who were gonna be," he said looking out into the wrecked hole. "Sometimes I wonder what our life would have been like if none of it happened but...we wouldn't have met Buffy or Giles or then so I guess in a way it's a good thing," he said with a small smile.

"Yeah I kinda figured you would be here since her grave is here...I wish I could have made a grave for Anya. One thing I won't miss from Sunnydale is definitely the death," he said with a slight laughter. "There's also Joyce...god, I still can't believe she's gone y'know?" Yeah all that pain and suffering was in that hole and it could stay there but Xander couldn't help but feel sad. The two were reminiscing. He just couldn't hold it in anymore, he started pacing. "What happened to us Will?" He stopped to talk. "Everything's changed I mean me and Buff aren't even talking and I understand that since I'm upset with her but you and I haven't talked and it isn't like we got in a fight...I miss the three of us hanging out and being all buddy buddy with one another," he sighed. "As Sunnydale sunk our friendship has changed," he said sadly. "Maybe it's because we're all busy with the adult world but it's just not the same," he had to say it he needed to speak up that's how Xander was.

Word count: 597
Tag: Willow
Notes: Awe Xander being all sad he misses his best friends<3

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[Willow Danielle Rosenberg]

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She cant lie Willow was kind of happy Xander followed, it was nice to have someone to talk to. Willow has had a lot on her mind lately, so having her best friend here may have been the best medicine for her.He has always been able to bring Willow up whenever she is down. “Yeah that we are amungos!” She said with a smile. “As for having eyes in the back of my head I do not, I just have really good senses. All though having eyes in the back head could come in handy, maybe I should find a spell to do that. But then again that would be creepy for even me.”

He really was the best friend a girl could ever have, he really has been there whenever she has needed him. Heck if wasn’t for Xander Willow might not even be here today. Her dark magic might have taken over completely, and maybe even killing her. But He risked his life to make sure he brought her out of it and back to them, and she will be forever thankful to have a friend as great has Xander. Nothing could never ever break there bond.

Willow agreed with Xander there was a lot about the town that she missed, even school but then again she always was a school nerd and bookworm. Always the type that loved to do her home work and even study. She smiled when he said something about kindergarten, still remembering even though it was so long ago. “Hey mister I’m still mad about that Barbie, I haven’t forgotten. but yeah I miss it all too. I mean so much happened there and now just gone!” She told him. “And you want to know the really crazy part of it all, not that I care to talk to them but I think my parents died there with it. I mean I have not heard from them since then you know.” It was crazy that Willow had not heard a thing from them, just lost contact after it all. But with the way they treated her like an out case Willow knew that it was for the best.

“You know I wouldn’t change anything that’s happened for the world, I’m happy to have met Buffy Giles and everyone else we have encountered. I mean if I wouldn’t have met Buffy I would have never had learned magic, which means I might have never met Tara.” Even though the love of Willow’s life wasn’t in her life anymore, she was happy for the time she did have with her. She cherishes every memory she has of them together.

It was crazy all the people they had lost, Willow had missed them all so much. Joyce was like a second mom to her, and Anya well in the end was a pretty good friend to them all. “I’m sorry about Anya Xander I’m sure you really miss her, I know you loved her.” She said while placing her hand on his.

Willow felt bad Xander did have a point, lately things had changed and they really needed to get together more. “I know I feel like a bad friend and I’m sorry, we really do need to do things together more. “ She told him with a smile. “As for Buffy she just has a lot going on right now, I mean with taking on Glory. So really she doesn’t have time for anything anymore, I feel bad with all the stress she is under. But I miss the three of us hanging out as well.”

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Tagged- Xander
Outfit- Click For Willow's Outfit
Note- YAY Willow and Xander time
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[Buffy Anne Summers]

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She sighed as she walked into her room, plopping down on her bed for the first time since everything had gone down earlier. She was not a huge fan of being covered in blood and that was pretty much all that covered her now. She had taken her agitation out on a few unsuspecting demons earlier in the night (not realizing that they bled blue blood) so it had been a very disgusting surprise when one of them exploded all over her. Granted she probably shouldn’t have pummeled them the way that she had but whatever, she was stressed out and needed to vent.

Slipping out of her jeans, sweater and boots she quickly jumped into the shower, scrubbing the blood and grime off of her. She knew realistically she should go down to hall and talk to Willow, wait until he returned and talk to Angel, or go to the kitchen and talk to Giles. However she didn't want too. She didn't want to explain to her friends, her mentor, or to her lover what was going on. She didn't want to explain how she felt. She just needed to take a beat and relax for a bit. She rarely did so anymore so she figured that after the past few weeks she deserved a rest.

After she had thoroughly rinsed her hair and body she shut the water off, stepping out of the shower and drying off. Running her brush through her hair she picked up her cell phone after seeing the red light blinking. She pulled it up to see that it was a text message from Willow, which was strange since she assumed that she was in her room, though she doubted that she would have text messaged her had that been the case. Pulling it up she noted with furrowed brows that it was a simple text message, though the implication was anything but. Hey, I’m going to be out of town for a few days. See you when I get back. The phrase ‘what the hell’ was screaming at the slayer from all sides in her mind and she quickly dialed Willow’s number before finding her phone had gone straight to voicemail.

She walked into the hallway and asked a few of the girls if they had seen her. Unfortunately they hadn’t though they also informed her that they hadn’t seen Xander either. Kelsey, one of the techie slayers informed her that if she had her phone on she could track the GPS. Now, the blonde slayer was not a technical fan at all…so she simply wrote the phone number down for the young woman and waited until she was given a location. Upon finding out that she was in the middle of California the blonde groaned before thanking Kelsey and running to her room. Throwing a bag together she quickly slipped into a pair of skinny jeans, boots, and a sweater that hit her at her elbow, figuring it was warm enough for Richmond but wouldn’t be stifling in California. She hitched a ride with Kelsey who was leaving and asked her to drop her off at the airport, giving no further explanation. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out where Willow (and she assumed Xander) had gone off too.

Once at the airport she found she was in luck as there was a flight leaving that was heading to Los Angeles in ten minutes. She hopped the flight (after paying a ridiculous amount for the last minute ticket) and sat back for the four hour flight to Los Angeles. Once there she rented a car and drove as quickly as she could towards what used to be home. About three miles out she stopped and pulled the rental to the side of the road, not wanting anyone to question why she was there. Locking the car she walked quickly yet silently towards the large crater, once she was closer she saw the backs of her two best friends and stayed silent, waiting to hear what was going on.

She felt tears spring to her eyes when she heard Xander talk about how their friendship had seemingly sunk when Sunnydale had. She opened her mouth to say something but Willow jumped in, defending her while at the same time making excuses. "Don't make excuses for me." She stated, knowing that she most likely scared them but not knowing how to else to announce her presence. "Your right...things have changed...but it's because I've been trying to keep them from the both of you that things have changed...not because I don't love both of you just as much as I did when we lived here." She told him, hoping that they would give her the chance to explain.

Word Count:: 820
Tag:: Xander Harris & Willow Rosenberg
Outfit:: Click here for Buffy’s Outfit
Note:: Awwwwww, this will be a really cute thread. <3

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[Alexander Lavelle Harris]

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"Yeah...please never put eyes in the back of your head I think that'd be traumatizing," he said with a laugh. He missed talking to his friend and it felt good to talk to her now what would make it perfect was if Buffy was there but of course she wasn't she was busy and he understood that he just wish the two could sit down and talk about things. "Okay, this talk about eyes at the back of your head is giving me the chills let's switch topics now," he said with a grin. It just felt good not to have any baggage at the moment and he couldn't help but feel happy even if they were looking down on their hometown he was just happy to finally be able to talk to the red-head. He just wished that Buffy could be there so then it would make the trio and Giles being here as well but great but the old man was always busy, everyone was busy which was why it put such a strain on their friendship.

Xander grew a sad smile on his face when she mentioned the barbie. God, he missed the past even the fights he had with his friends but knowing that they all hung out everyday after school just made him sad because of how everything was different, they had so much responsibilities now. "I said I was sorry! You broke my hurt that day," he said jokingly. "Yeah...I haven't heard anything from mine either. Do you think our parents were stupid enough to stay? Either that or their vacationing somewhere together," he said with a frown. "It's weird to think that me, you, Buffy, and Giles made it out together though...I never thought I'd make it this far," he was normal he wasn't special like the rest of them so him not dying was surprising. "I mean c'mon bug lady tried to mate with me," he face palmed himself remembering it.

"Yeah...you're right," he said with a nod. "I wouldn't have met Anya...I'm really glad Buffy came into our lives though," he said with a smile. There was always something missing in the friendship with Willow and Xander and apparently it was Buffy, they needed that one person just to make a great friend group and that person was Buffy. Xander looked down at the hole not wanting to think about Anya anymore. It just saddened him he made the biggest mistake when he left her at the altar, he should have married her even if he wasn't ready but he knew he was in love with her. God, now was not the time to become sad. "It's all right," he looked up at Willow. "Living on the hell mouth was never a good way to meet someone," he said with a slight chuckle.

"I know but-," he wasn't able to finish what he was going to say because Buffy came out of nowhere which actually made Xander jump. "Buff," he said with a frown. He was wondering what the blonde was doing here too but he was wondering what she was trying to get at as well. "You've noticed too but why keep it from us," he asked the girl wanting a full explanation from her. He had hoped that it wasn't something bad but she did say she loved the both of them still so maybe they all could talk it out? He didn't know he was just missing the friendship with the two girls. He waited for Buffy's explanation being patient this time.

Word count: 594
Tag: Willow, Buffy
Notes: YAY the trio<3

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[Willow Danielle Rosenberg]

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Willow thought it was pretty funny that the whole eyes in the back of the head thing was giving Xander chills, it was easy for Willow to give him the creeps and funny too. But it was all in good fun she was not one to mess with him all the time, well she tries not to anyway. But sadly with him sometimes its just easy. "OK we can be done with the eye topic, I don't think they would look to good back there with my red hair anyway."She said with a giggle.

She could see a smile on his face when she mentioned the Babie, those really were good times in there life that they always will remember. "Hey I didn't mean to break your heart, I mean how old was I again. I'm pretty sure that we were pretty much kids back then you know. I Didn't really know anything about love or care about men for that matter. All though I don't really care for them now ether." She wonder the same thing that he did about her parents, but sad as it was to admit she really didn't care to find them. They never really thought to care about her or what she wanted for that matter. So why should she even worrier for them, plus since everything they haven't even thought to look for her which does hurt. "Maybe they did make it out of town and maybe they didn't." She said while shrugging her shoulders. " its crazy that we all made it out like that, but you know I never had any doubts in my mind that we wouldn't. I mean Xander whenever we are all together we are so strong, like we can do or take on anything! And I love that feeling, being friends with you guys really has brought fun to my life." She said to him with a smile.

She laughter when he had said something about a bug lady trying to mate with him, Xander really was known for having the worst luck in the world with woman in the past. First a bug lady then a mummy, psychotic slayer and vengeance demon. Willow could go down the list but it would take way to long. "I know Xander you really do have some bad luck with the ladies." She said while laughing. "But its OK Xander we still love you."

Buffy really has done a lot coming in there lives more then she realizes, she has been a great friend who has brought fun and excitement. "I'm glad she did too and wouldn't change it for the world." She told him. "I know though it is hard not always seeing her all the time, she can be busy. But you also have to realize all the responsibility she has taken on now, I mean she is the leader of every Slayer in the world. I mean this not something easy for anyone to take on. I can only imagine all the stress she goes though on a day to day basis."

Then all the sudden as they were talking scaring Xander out of mid sentence, came Buffy out of nowhere. "Buffy what are you doing here?" Willow asked wondering. But then Willow knew why, sadly she knew her friend just like a book. She must be freaking out by the text message that she had sent her. But maybe it was good that she was here, at lest now she had heard that knew just how Xander felt.


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Tagged- Xander
Outfit- Click For Willow's Outfit
Note- YAY Willow and Xander time
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[Buffy Anne Summers]

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She shook her head and sighed, going and sitting against the edge of the huge hole that was now the only thing left of Sunnydale. She looked down for a moment before scooting back, not wanting to be right at the edge but still wanting to sit down. She wasn’t sure why but she felt less likely that she’d fall if she sat, which was really stupid but oh well. Not many people knew about Buffy’s fear of heights yet there it was. She could conquer it if she had to during a fight, but once things settled down she would freak out all day long, again, not something that many people knew.

She shot a look at Willow when she asked what she was doing there. “Really, I get a text message from you saying you’re going to be out of town for a few days. No one knows where you went. Then I go look for Xander and no one knows where he went either! Luckily one of the girls who is leaving for Rome in the next few days is some technical genius and was able to GPS you and find out where the hell you were. And let me just tell you, I don’t even know what GPS means so I was a tad freaked out by it but whatever, that’s not the point. The next time either of you go somewhere for an extended period of time, at least tell me where you are going, even if it is just in a text message. Deal?” She asked them, patting the ground to ask both of them to sit. She didn’t want to continue to look up at them though she would if she had to.

Taking a deep breath she sighed before staring into the eyes of her male best friend, wanting nothing more than to explain everything and yet not knowing how to do so. She wanted to tell him about her newfound immortality, she wanted to tell him about how Angelus had reemerged and how she had slept with him, she wanted to tell him everything…and yet she knew there was a chance she would lose him should she tell him any of it. Xander had never been one to deal with change very well, especially when it came to someone that he loved. He never could accept that her life wasn’t what he thought it would be, and had never accepted her acceptance of it.

She felt her eyes slip closed for a moment before opening them again, looking at Willow for a second before focusing behind them on the crater that her back was now to. “I don’t even know where to begin…and I’m worried that once I say the things that I need to say, they become real. Willow already knows one…and the only reason Xander that you don’t know is because you weren’t here when it happened. And honestly, I would never tell you if I had that option, because I know you will be hurt, upset, and disgusted. You’re not the only one. “ She told him softly. “You never could understand my relationship, my feelings for Angel…and that’s one of the reasons that I haven’t told you this.” She told him, hoping that he would keep his anger to himself but knowing that she was not that lucky.

“A few months ago, I guess about two, Angel and I were laying in bed. We weren’t doing anything sexual, just laying there talking. All of a sudden Kathy comes in, who yes I know you still need to meet. She wants to hang out with us for awhile and so we do. We talk and finally Kathy falls asleep cuddled on Angel’s chest. I was on one side and she was on the other. He got this look on his face as he looked down at us, his family, and I knew he was happy. It didn’t even click in my head until he shot up grasping his chest. He told me to run, to take Kathy and Run. He knew what was happening. I knew then too. I was sobbing, Kathy was screaming, and yet all I did was run. I didn’t think to warn anyone, I just knew that I had to get her out. “ She told him tears falling down her cheeks as she remembered.

“I rented an apartment and was able to get Kathy somewhere safe. After that I called Willow and Spike, and they met me there.” She continued. “Once they got there I went back to the boarding house, I had to. Spike and Willow both tried to talk me out of it and yet I insisted, knowing instinctively that it’s where I needed to be.” She told him, leaving out exactly why she had gone there. “When I got there I saw what he had done, what I had allowed to happen. I had only been gone an hour…and yet when I got back all my nightmares had come around again.” She clutched her chest as her heart broke for what had happened, and knowing that there was a chance she would lose one of her best friend’s because of it.

Word Count:: 901
Tag:: Xander Harris & Willow Rosenberg
Outfit:: Click here for Buffy’s Outfit
Note:: Bwahahahahaha, this thread just got a whole lot more interesting <3 <3 <3

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"Okay, good I don't need nightmares now Will," he said jokingly. This felt good talking to his best friend like this without getting into anything serious even though the two had a lot to discuss which he didn't want to but that was the grown up thing to do, they had to talk about feelings. Why couldn't it be back to high school where Xander would just avoid the problem until he snapped that always seemed to work well, well not really but it was better than bringing it up when he wasn't angry. High school drama was just a lot easier than the adult world and he wished that he could just go back a little bit, reminiscing was just extremely depressing for him knowing the friendship he used to have with these girls and now it was basically nothing.

Xander laughed so hard at what Willow said she was funny something he forgot. "You know I forgot you were into men back then," he told her with another laugh. It had just seemed like Willow had been a lesbian forever but she was in love with Oz at one point, Xander actually wondered if she still loved him and if she had the chance would she get back together with him. There were a lot of questions in his head about it but now wasn't really the right time to bring it up they had different things to talk about. "Well, we did survive high school so I shouldn't be surprised and you're right we came, we saw, we conquered," he said with a big grin on his face. "I'm glad you guys are in my life or else I'd be that loser back in high school."

Xander smiled when Willow laughed. "Yeah....told ya, I should become gay teach me your ways!" He said jokingly. He loved women but his luck with them was just horrible and that was why he was just taking a break and was just good for being single. "As long as you do or else I might just have to tickle you to death!" He tickled the red-head just having a good time with her. He had realized how much he missed this friendship with her. It was crazy how they all lived in the same house yet no one had time for each other and they couldn't even have a sleepover or anything like that because of their business.

"I know Will jus-" Buffy had came in and talked. Xander listened carefully to what the blonde had said. "Buffy that's not fair you know the only reason why I didn't like Angel was because I liked you so much in high school! And being rejected wasn't the greatest time of my life then a this vampire comes in and sweeps you off your feet and let's not forget how he turned to Angelus and killed Ms. Calendar," he said a little angrily. He didn't want to bring this stuff up but it had to be laid out in the open. "So, yeah I didn't understand how you could love someone who would never die and had killed probably thousands of people but then I met Anya who killed men for vengeance and I realized that you loved Angel for who he is not for who he was back then," he told the blonde hoping he was making sense. "I never got to tell you that...since both you and Willow keep secrets from me constantly," he hated the way they talked without him without even thinking about him.

Once again he listened. Anger had filled him when she said she had just ran not even thinking about the potentials in the house. But apart of him felt bad for her as well as she could hear her teary voice. That still didn't change the fact that Buffy had kept this from him. "How could you be so careless?! All those girls gone and none of you even thought that maybe I'd like to know that a bunch of young girls had died. Once again Xander is left in the dark. And what's sad is that Angel was the first person to tell me what had happened when he lost his soul but did either of you? My best friends? Guess I'm not that important I dunno," he said with a shrug and angrily. "You're right I am disgusted but I've been hurt and upset for a long time," he said truthfully. He wanted both girls to look at him it was time to be face to face. "How could you guys hide so much from me? I know I'm not great at handling things but we're supposed to be best friends and you guys act as if you don't care," he then took a deep sigh and went closer to the girls one who was crying and the other who seemed worried. "I'm angry and you both know that," he reached out for both of their hands. "We aren't close like we used to be," he took a pause. "But we're family and we have been since we've met and if you guys think that just because you do something that isn't...right doesn't change what we are we're supposed to get through things together and be there for each other I mean Willow has tried destroying the world and Buffy you've tried killing us but we still made it through and you guys gotta know that...I love you guys," he gave them a sad smile. "I just wish there were no secrets...I miss us."

Word count: 925
Tag: Willow, Buffy
Notes: MY GOSH this thread is becoming intense I love it<3

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[Willow Danielle Rosenberg]

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Willow couldn’t forget that she was once into men if she tired, she still to this day thinks about Oz and wonders how he is doing. “Does that mean that you forgot about Oz? all though after what you and I did I’m sure you two were not the best of friends.” she told him. She still had not heard from Oz since theylast departed when he came to her school, she really had wondered how he was doing. Last she checked he had been working on controlling his inner wolf, which was going ok until he got mad with Willow. Which may have been why they had not seen or heard from each other since then. But then again maybe it was for the best that they didn’t, plus now he might not like the fact that not only is Willow gay but is now dating a vampire.

The witch then became mad with her best friend, walking over and smacking him over the head. “Alexander Harris you are not a loser! You never were, you didn’t need us as friends to tell you that. You are such a kind yet sweet person which is why I became your friend, who cares what everyone else though of you.” She explained. “You never could be a loser Xander, not even if you tired to. You might be a little crazy at times but that’s ok, that another reason we love you so much.” The witch then gave him a big hug holding him tightly. “Oh and sorry if I hurt you but you had it coming. Better me hit you then Buffy right?.”

She loved how Xander always says he should be gay, the truth is he couldn’t be gay if he tried. He is so into girls its crazy, always flirting, messing with them. At one point he even tired to get with Buffy, which never was going to happen in a million years. But it was still funny to watch him try. “Xander stop tickling me!’ She said while giggling like crazy. Finally after letting up she told him. “You couldn’t be gay if you tried Mr. We both know how much you love girls. I mean am I wrong?”

When Buffy came things got deep between her and Xander, they were things that had been pent up between the two for awhile, things that needed to be said. Things with Buffy and Xander always had been difficult with Angel, for some reason he never has really liked him nor has he given him a chance. But he did have his reasons for why he didn’t, it was hard for all of them to what happened with Jenny. To this day Willow still misses her, heck if it wasn’t for her Willow wouldn’t be where she was today. Being such a skilled witch in the arts of magic, she owes a lot to her.

Then Buffy begin to tell Xander all that had happened, telling him how Angel had lost his soul again. Poor Buffy begin to cry as she told the story like it was her fault. But really she couldn’t have known that was going to happen, it never crossed her mind that he could have been that happy to have it happen. After all Buffy thought that it only happened threw Sex, heck they all did. Willow got up sitting next to her best friend trying to give her comfort. “Buffy its not your fault you didn’t know that was going to happen, don’t beat yourself up.” she told her.

But Buffy was right her fear of Xander getting mad happened, he begin to yell and scream at not just Buffy but Willow as well. Mad at how they had kept it from them. Willow just couldn’t help but get up and scream back. “She didn’t tell you because she knew you act like this, I mean come on Xander you have always had it out for Angel from the day you met him. He cant help what happens with his soul and that he is not himself. Which is why I’m trying to help him with that, because deep down he is a good person. I mean come on Xander did you give up on me when I went dark? I mean I was bad why didn’t you hate or try and kill me?” She asked him waiting for answer.

After Willow went off she realized all that she had said, when really there best friend had just missed them. He told him how much he loved and wanted things to back the way they were, which Willow could understand. After all Xander never did well with Change. “I’m sorry Xander I will try and not keep things from you anymore, I love and miss us too. I love you guys so much, I don’t know where I would be or what I would do with out you both” She said looking at her best friends, as she begin to shed a tear.


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Tagged- Xander
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Note- YAY Willow and Xander time
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Seeing Willow hit Xander stopped her from doing the same thing, which was definitely a good thing since the blonde slayer tended to forget her own strength. She had broken more than one rib over the years due to an overzealous hug. She did however lean over and pinch him in the side to make sure that he knew she agreed with the ramble that their red headed best friend was letting loose. Once Willow finished the blonde figured she would add her two cents in. “Agreed. Xander you two have to remember something…the only reason I wasn’t completely ostracized at Sunnydale was because of you. Sure Cordelia offered to hang out with me for about two seconds but how long before I attacked her with a stake and she decided I was crazy? Not long.” She told them both, hoping they would see where she was coming from.

“How many people from high school are still as close as we are?” She asked before giving them both a fond smile. “How many people back then could say that they saved the world more than once? Just because no one knows it doesn’t mean that it’s not true. You were worth more than the rest of Sunnydale High School combined and you know that deep down, so don’t call yourself a loser.” She told him, wagging her finger trying to lighten the mood. “And if I hear it again I’ll be the one to hit you and I really don’t want to have to do that.” She told him with a wink, hoping that the mood would stay light.

Unfortunately her hope didn’t come true as she let her story out about Angelus, and it was just the tip of the iceberg. She knew she deserved everything that was said and it wasn’t the first time she had heard it, but she also knew that she couldn’t change the past. She prayed that the tears wouldn’t fall though she could barely see since they were welled up in her eyes. “You think I don’t know that it was careless? My entire mind was on Kathy, Dawn, Giles, Spike and Willow. None of them were home but they could walk in any minute. The only one that was home was Kathy and I knew I couldn’t let her get hurt.” She told him, not allowing the fact that Kathy was like her own flesh and blood pass her lips. She really didn’t want to hear what Xander thought about that particular revelation.

Hearing his question she shook her head, trying to keep Willow from answering though she beat her to it. Once she had spoken Buffy shook her head. “You were still in Rome when this happened Xander. Willow was able to curse Angelus after a few days and you were still in Rome. We didn’t tell you because luckily we were able to keep Angelus contained after the first two days.” She told him, realizing after she said it that he would ask how they had done that. She didn’t want him to know that she had used her body to keep Angelus busy, or did she want to admit how much she had craved the demon’s touch, but she would be honest if he asked. Well, she would tell him the facts, though would probably leave the craving part of it aside. Her sexual history was already more public knowledge than it should have been because of what happened on her seventeenth birthday and then what happened when Spike let loose that they had slept together after he slept with Anya. Either way her private life was something she tried to keep private as much as possible which definitely wasn’t easy.

A tear finally rolled down her cheek but she wiped it away as quickly as she could, trying not to show weakness. “I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to hear you say I told you so. Yes, I’ll agree that those girls’ deaths are on my head and I will live with that forever. However that doesn’t mean that killing Angel would do a damn bit of good!” She told him, standing up and pacing, hiding her sadness with anger. “So if you think that it will you keep on thinking. I buried those girls and sobbed the entire time I did it. I was the one who called their families, I was the one who told them what happened. So I faced what I had done. You want to take a swing at me then do it, but do not think about blaming Angel because it wasn’t his fault.” She told him, knowing that while he hadn’t said anything against Angel she was aware that he was most likely thinking it.

Hearing his words of love she sighed, her anger leaving her as she flopped down on the concrete surface. “I miss us too.” She whispered, knowing that she and Willow hadn’t been as close either, though she knew that Angel had let her have that as well during a blow up between all of them.

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Tag:: Xander Harris & Willow Rosenberg
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"Of course not! Oz my bud, my pal, my only guy friend at the time," he told her with a grin. Xander remembered that night when the two were stuck in that basement or whatever it was and he thought they were going to die and of course Cordelia and Oz had to come down as him and Willow kissed. "Yeah...he wasn't too happy about it but he forgave so it's all good that kiss doesn't really matter considering you're a lesbian now," he said with a little laugh. It was so weird Xander had wanted Willow because she had a boyfriend which made him more attracted to her and after that kiss with her and their partners found out Xander instantly regretted it he wondered what would have happened if it didn't happen would he still be with Cordelia? He didn't really know.

Xander felt the smack and he rubbed the back of his head. "Ouch!" He hated being hit by one of his friends especially Buffy it was like she didn't hold back it was scary sometimes that was another reason why he didn't like fighting with her because sometimes it would escalate to the point where it could be physical but someone or something would stop their conflict. "I guess I wasn't too bad but social status in school extremely low," he said with a frown. "Then again that spell with Amy when I made every girl want me not so bad until you know...I found out everyone was crazy for me. You're right better you than Buffy I mean Buffy you should lighten up on your hits," he said with a smile. "You're right Buff I'm glad I became your friend and didn't think you were nuts when you and Giles were talking about vampires," he remembered he was looking for a book and he had overheard the two talk about it and Xander was thinking 'what on earth?'

"Ya caught me, women are my weakness," he said with another laugh. "Yeah!" He said loudly. "Through high school and college even though I didn't do college but saving the world also god we rock," he said with a nod. "Thanks guys that means a lot and I never want to get hit by you your hits hurt. Only training when I'm wearing protective gear," even that didn't help so much Buffy was so strong like he honestly didn't know how vampires or demons could face her considering she had so much strength including the experience since she had been alive a lot more longer than any other slayer besides Faith but even so Buffy was stronger because she still had more experience started off earlier than Faith.

Xander was listening to Buffy and he didn't really know what to say. Buffy had done something that was careless but he felt bad for her she had to bury them and call their parents now that really sucked. "I'm trying to understand Buff but I just don't get it how did you leave all those girls there did you not run into any of them? You must have at least seen one on your way out unless you jumped out the window...but no!" He was just angry and needed to calm down. "I know Kathy's Angel's little sister so you had to do something your priority was to get her out because she's family or whatever but you still have other priorities, now I'm sounding like Giles," he said with a frown and a little jokingly to try and lighten the mood. Xander wasn't going to be a hypocrite he knew that if one of the girls were in danger he would make sure to get the two out even if they were more powerful than him.

"You were able to keep Angelus contained for two days? Now I know you didn't just lock him in the basement...there had to be something you did," he then turned to Willow with anger. "Yeah you went dark! I helped you and maybe if both of you weren't so busy hiding things from me and not talking to me," he then shifted his position so he could look at girls. "I hate Angelus I really do and I can't stand him but Angel that's different and if you guys actually took the time to talk to me you would know that me and Angel talked things out and I don't hate him. I stopped trying to find excuses to hate him and I already told you both the only reason why I hated him was because of what happened to Ms. Calender okay?" He said with a raise of his voice. "And another reason why I hated him because I was basically infatuated with Buffy and then this vampire who's older than our great grandma's takes her but after everything and years of thinking I stopped especially when Buffy went to kill Anya because of what she had done that moment made me realize a lot," he was really going into a big spiel.

"Maybe I would say I told you so if you guys actually opened to me this has always happened no matter what is happening I'm the one that doesn't know because everyone is so worried that I'm going to judge. Have you guys ever thought that maybe the reason why I get so angry is because I found out days later maybe even months?" He took a deep breath. "I was never going to blame Angel...if anything it's Angelus' fault for doing this and Willow I wanna help finding a permanent soul and I'm serious about it if this is the way for you guys to know that I'm perfectly fine with Angel then so be it. Besides I don't want that bastard Angelus ever getting out," he told both girls.

"Thank you that's all I ask for from the both of you," Xander's eyes started to water. He didn't know why he was getting emotional but seeing both girls start crying made him just want to cry plus all this pent up sadness and anger was just coming out. "I just want things to be the same...I don't wanna lose you guys as friend because of some stupid fight or because of distance. I know the adult world and we have so many responsibilities but does it really have to be like this?" He asked the girls. He just wanted the time with his friends and even though they just had a fight he was glad to be there with them they were finally all together hanging out.

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Tag: Willow, Buffy
Notes: This thread oh my and omg Xander is going to flip shit when he finds out LOL

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They all have stayed pretty close since sunnydale, after all this time they were still friends and still saving the world one day at a time. How Meany people can say that three best friends saved the world from the apocalypse, not Meany that's for sure. Willow hoped that Xander understand why she smacked him when she did, it was only because she hated the way he was talking about himself. Xander has always done that as long as Willow as knew him, always putting himself down, acting like he was a no body. But she wasn't anymore they had been and fought through to much to let him go around and talk like that. He really needed to stop being hard on himself.

Xander was right he really was starting to sound like Giles, in away it was starting to sacred the hell out of Willow. But then again she was also proud of him knowing he was growing into the watcher that he always wanted to be. Giles would be so proud of him, Willow could only imagine how proud Buffy was of him. After all even though he was in fact pissing Buffy off right now didn't mean that she didn't know how good he was. Buffy knew that he was become a great watcher to not just them but all the other girls, they really did look up to Xander back in Rome. Willow then looked at Xander after he said something about Kathy getting in his face. "Look Kathy is family and she is important to us just as much as the other girls were, so don't even start to tell me there is an order here that we need to follow." Willow really did like Kathy, she really was a kind yet sweet hearted girl. She had nothing about her that even seemed like a vampire, to Willow she sees more of little Angel minis the wings. She knew that Xander needed to watch what he said, because Willow knew Xander like a book and knew once they met he was going to love her.

Willow could tell that he was pissed by her commit but she couldn't help it, it was something that needed to be said. Xander needed to realize some of these thing and stop seeing and hearing only what he wanted to. But Willow couldn't lie she was shocked to hear that he did in fact talk to Angel as well as working things out. It really made her wonder what had all been said and brought to the table, all though she knew that Buffy had to be thinking the same thing. "Wow Xander I'm happy that you to worked it out, Angel really has always like you and has never had a problem with you." She told him. "So what did you guys talk about anyway?" She asked knowing Buffy would want to know as well.

Willow did feel bad and wanted to start filling him in on things, she really was stating to feel bad for all this lying. But then again Buffy did have her reasons for not filling him in, which at the time was good enough for Willow. She went along with it knowing that it had to be the right thing to do. But now Willow wasn't so sure she felt so bad for all the hush hush between them and wanted to start being more honest with him. "I'm sorry that we hurt you Xander and I will try and open up to you more. And just so you know I think Angel would like that if you helped me fine a cure for him, I know that Buffy would as well." She then turned looking to her bestie with a smile. "wouldn't you Buff?" She asked her.

Willow then wanted to cry so hard when she saw that Xander was, she knew then how much he really did care for them and how much he had missed them. Willow couldn't help but to start shedding tears along with him, as well as running up to him for a hug. "Don't worry Xander You are not going to lose us, we are going to be friends to the very end you, me, and Buffy. You watch we will all grow old together." Willow then looked over at Buffy hoping she would join in for a hug.


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She shook her head, answering his questions honestly. “No, I didn’t run into anyone before I left. Honestly I have no idea if they were there when I left or if they got there before I was able to get back. I hadn’t thought that anyone was in the house honestly when I left since for most of the night it had just been the three of us…” She told him before holding up her hand, cutting off anyone who was going to try and interrupt before she finished what she was going to say. “I know that it’s no excuse but I had no idea that anyone else was in the house.” She told him, not bothering to add on that even if she had she would have still gotten Kathy out of the house, though she would have at least made it back sooner rather than waiting for Spike, Willow and Faith to get there before going back.

She sighed, realizing that Xander clearly didn’t understand. “Xand, honestly, me getting Kathy out of the house had very little to do with her being Angel’s younger sister and everything to do with the fact that I love like her like she was my own.” She admitted, knowing that she had never spoken her feelings about the subject she was treading on with either of them. “I’ve known for a long time, since I was called honestly, that I would never have children.” She started, hating the way her voice cracked on the word children. “I hate to admit it but my mother and Angel were both right when they told me years ago that there would come a day that I would want kids...but I was right too. I knew then and I know now that it would never be safe enough for me to have a child. Hell I highly doubt I could even get pregnant with the whole being dead twice and how many times I’ve been hurt over the years.” She continued, not looking at either of her friends for fear of what their faces would show her.

“Then I found out from Angelus nonetheless that Angel had a kid. I doubt anyone really knows what that did to me. I remember Angel’s words from when I was sixteen so precisely, the day he told me that he couldn’t have kids.” She told them, her mind going over the words as if she was back in that cemetery speaking about her stupid egg diary.

I wouldn't know. I don't... Well, you know, I, I can't.

Oh. That's okay, um... I-I figured there were all sorts of things vampires couldn't do. You know, like work for the Telephone Company, or volunteer for the Red Cross, or... have little vampires.

She hadn’t really truly ever thought about it before that day, about him not being able to have children, and yet something broke inside her when he told her that he…that they couldn’t have children.

“So to find out, from my enemy, that Angel had a child, it broke me. I wanted to rage at anyone and everyone I could think of about the injustice of it all, and yet I had to stand there and pretend that I was okay in order to deal with the drama that had once again become my life. I know it sounds stupid because yes I realize I have bigger priorities than children but with Kathy it’s almost as if I get that chance. I know a huge part of it is that she is Angel’s sister meaning that she’s the closest thing I will ever have to a child with Angel…but that’s the reason that I got her out of there…because I love her…not because Angel does.” She whispered, clearing her throat to try and dispel the lump that was threatening to release.

She sighed when he asked her how she kept him occupied. “Trust me Xander, you don’t want to know. I’ll tell you if you ask me again, but I am telling you right now that you don’t want to know. Hell even Spike wanted to kick my ass and that’s saying something.” She told him with a forced laugh, trying not to show the genuine fear in her eyes at the thought of telling her best friend that she had slept with a murderer…especially one that he hated as much as he did Angelus.

She knew that Xander was right in what he was saying. She had kept him out of the loop for a long time because of the things with Angel...and she made herself a vow to try and be better at sharing things. She knew that she still had to come clean about the immortality issue but for the moment she just wanted to have her best friends back. She missed them, missed the way that the three of them could stay up all night talking and laughing about absolutely nothing of importance...she missed how comfortable they used to be around one another. She just missed them.

She nodded at Willow's question about finding a cure for Angel's soul. "I definitely think the three of us could come up with something...though I will most definitely stay away from the actual magic part of it. Knowing my luck I'd make things much worse." She told them with a laugh, leaning into the three way hug with her two best friends. “I say once school is out, this summer when I’m not working, I say that the three of us go somewhere…I don’t care where…but somewhere. Just the three of us. Sort of a best friends week. Maybe Disney world?” She asked with a giggle, remembering how they had talked once upon a time about going to Disney world…though she knew she’d end up punching Mickey Mouse in the face if he tried to pose for a picture with her.

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Tag:: Xander Harris & Willow Rosenberg
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Note:: Tehehehehee. The last sentence made me laugh. Lol

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