::Open:: All In My Mind

[samwinchester]

There was almost a surreal quality to Dean as he moved, sewing closed the wound with the dental floss. For a moment, Sam imagined that his injury was a great mouth, a maw of teeth, jagged, uneven, and scarce, but enough to appear to be the mouth that it was pretending to be. The more Dean sewed it closed, the closer the teeth came to gnashing and pressing against each other, the lips coming closer and closing and ready...

Sam sat back and lost himself in the pain. It was true... There was a steadiness to it, a concreteness that Sam had found in so few other places lately. He relished in it, letting the pain flood his mind, letting the endorphins wave over his brain like the tides of the moon. They reflected his pain back to him, and he allowed himself to event horizon under it. Drowning he knew nothing else, and for the first time since he got his soul back, he felt freedom blossoming in his mind. Under the currents of pain, he let go...

When he said he was scared, he didn't even open his eyes. He just spoke it as a truth of the universe into the room. So when Dean grabbed him into a hug, it was somewhat of a surprise. Furthermore, Dean did not hug. He was not a hugging guy. For a moment, he tensed up, not knowing what to expect as his brother engulfed him in his arms. But then Dean spoke, and when he talked, Sam could feel his body naturally surrender. He relaxed into Dean, letting go of so much for the second time in just as many minutes. He didn't want to cry, he didn't want to... But he could not help the tears from glistening at the edge of his eyes. Dewy, he tried to hide them, tried to not blink for fear that they would spill forward.

"You don't need to stop your life for me, Dean... You already stopped out life because the hunting. I don't want to add to all that..." He didn't want to say Lisa's name out loud, but that was who he was thinking about... Dean had given up so much for Sam, and for the job, Sam didn't want to give him one more thing that he needed to sacrifice.

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Tag: Dean, OPEN Count: 401 Notes: My homework's calling to me, telling me that I need to work on it...
Credit: Jax

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[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean didn’t want his brother to be scared, he wanted Sam to know that he was safe and nothing was going to hurt him. He wasn’t going back to hell, nothing was going to get and take him from here again, and he wanted him to know that all of this was very real. He was safe now that he was back with Dean and he needed Sam to know that, but he could tell he was going to have trouble getting his brother to see all of this. But after everything Dean really couldn’t blame him, he was the same way after he came back from hell.

He could tell that Sam was worried that he was holding Dean back from from things, but he wasn’t he chose to be back and here with his brother that he though he had lost forever. Which for Dean was the worst day of his life, he couldn’t relive that day even if he had to. He would rather die then have to deal with it all again. “Look Sammy you aren’t holding me back from anything, and I didn’t stop my life! You are my brother and best friend man, you are my life. I’m always going to be here for you no matter what, Even if you don’t want me to be.” It was the truth he would always be there helping his brother threw whatever it was he was going threw, even if Sam didn’t want him to. They were family and a team and nothing was every going to change or stop that.

Part of the whole reason Dean had to stop his life was Lisa’s fault, she couldn’t deal with him hunting again. He could tell that was what Sam was referring to, just by what he was talking about. The truth of the matter was Dean didn’t have a choice, the town was not safe that they moved too and he did what he had to in keeping Lisa and Ben safe. Even if it was hard as hell on him. “Look Man the reason I’m back in this gig is because of Lisa and Ben, the town was not safe. So we did it for a while and she was cool with it, but that was in the beginning. Over time she couldn’t take it anymore it was killing her to worry about me, which it really sucks because I do love her and I think about her every moment of everyday. So you see man if I lose you then I really don’t have anything to live for.” Dean said with his head down, trying not to cry. He hated it wished so much that Lisa didn't brake it off with him, but he can force her to be with him.


Word Count- 470
Tagged- OPEN
Outfit- Click to see Dean's outfit.
Note-If you are wanting to end this soon let me know, i have another thread on the site that might need Sam and Dean in it.

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[samwinchester]

Sam sat across from Dean, watching him opening himself up. These heart to hearts were a rare occurrence between the brothers, but whenever they happened, it usually ended up with them both getting misty eyed. Neither of them were the crying type. It just always happened out that way. Sam could feel it coming on already, the moisture setting into his eyes, tears setting in that were not coming from pain of the skin, but pain of the heart.

Sam thought back onto what little he knew about Dean and Lisa's relationship. Dean had wanted so badly to be a family man, to be a father, and a serious lover, that (at least Dean thought) he had settled down with Lisa too fast. Yeah, Sam had made Dean promise that he would, and a pang of disappointment in himself settled in. Maybe if Sam hadn't told Dean to go off and be with Lisa, and promise him to do it on Sam proverbial death bed, then he wouldn't have gone through the heartache of being with a woman that would never understand his brother and his life.

"Eh, you deserve better than her anyway." He waved his good hand in the air in a dismissive way, pushing the importance of Lisa away with the brush of his fingertips. And he was being honest. Dean deserved to be someone who would not only love him, but love the job. Maybe another hunter. Certainly someone who didn't mind being on the road. All this got Sam wondering about his own life, about the women that had come and gone through it, many of them leaving tragically. It was hard to keep his mind from wandering to Katherine...

"I mean it, Dean. You're... gonna find someone. And she is going to be great." he was also doing his best to change the subject. His mind, for the most part, had calmed down. All the stress was giving him a moment of reprieve from the... whatever was going on around him. "Hey, are you hungry? All this... breakfast. I could use some breakfast."

Tag: Dean Count: 376 Notes: I am cool to end this scene anytime you wanna. I do feel like it has served a good purpose. ^_^
Credit: Jax

[Dean Jonathon Winchester]

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Dean really didn’t like showing this side of himself, it wasn’t really something he did very often. He wasn’t much of a guy who showed tears, it was how is dad raised him. John always told him to buck up and that men don’t cry. But he knew with everything that had gone on between them Sam coming back from hell and all, they were some much needed feelings and things that needed to come out. Plus Dean really needed to talk about this stuff, and Sam was really the only one he could do that with.

Really Sam was wrong there wasn’t anyone better out there for Dean then her, really the truth was she disserved better then him. But he knew Sam was just trying to cheer him up and make him feel better. That was Sam for ya always trying to make a bad situation better, and Dean will always love his brother for that. “Yeah I guess you are right man I am way to awesome for her! I will find somebody else even better for me, who will love me for me. Well one day when are life isn’t so crazy, if that ever happens.” Dean said joking around knowing that deep down it wasn’t the truth, But he was right about one thing. When would there life ever not be crazy?

Sam then said the magic words to make this whole situation even better, he brought up the idea to go get breakfast. One Dean’s favorite meals times of the day, well with food all meal times were his favorite. “Sammy I think that sounds like a great idea, lets go get some breakfast. You know I could go for a pig and a poke myself.” Dean then picked up his coat and was on his way out the door with his Bro, knowing that over time things well get better for them as long as they sick together.

Word Count- 325
Tagged- OPEN
Outfit- Click to see Dean's outfit.
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